It's the most wonderful time of the year??
While everyone chatters happily about what a marvelous, wonderful, exciting, fun, happy Christmas they had, I'm sitting here with nothing to add to this excited conversation. Lets face it, my Christmas just wasn't that great. I know, I know, you're going to all jump in and say "what could be bad, friends family presents what more can you ask for?" Well in light of all that's going on right now, it just wasn't that great of a time, and I find myself wishing for break to be over. I'm counting down the days until I leave for Alabama. That's right, i'm more excited to go down south to ALABAMA of all places, work 6 am -2:30 pm in a SHIPYARD with a bunch of dirty men, and have to survive living on my own for two months, than I am about it being Christmas break.
As for the "friends" part...well lets make that a singular "friend." My boyfriend, Chris, is the only friend I have here in New York. Don't get me wrong, I love spending time with him, and we've hung out a ton over break, but I need to have more than just one friend. I miss the days of going to Callie's, or Laura's, or Kina's house, and there would be 20 somethingp people there, and I knew everyone there and could have so much fun talking to everyone. Now, Chris will take me to meet kids he went to school with, and its just "oh you're chris's girlfriend, I've heard so much about you" and that's about the extent of the conversation. It's really hard to go places where you only know one person. I guess we can get technical and say that I've met his 3 best friends also, so I know them a bit, but not enough to call them up to hang out. And I don't have any girl friend here either, which I really miss. I'd like to have someone to go to the mall with, and spend a half hour in one store without being subjected to the painfully bored look that guys get when dragged to the mall. I want someone who will willingly go into Claire's with me and help me pick out earrings..or someone who I can watch girly movies with.
Hm let's see....the "family" part of Christmas. Well I don't know most of my relatives, since I never grew up with them, so they don't all remember how old I am, and I don't really have anything to talk about with them either. Once they find out that I'm a naval architecture major, its just "oh, that's nice" and you can see they're thinking "what the hell is that?" or "I don't care about boats" So going to the relatives' house for christmas isn't exactly my idea of fun... I wish i was still 6 years old and could get away with bringing a toy or a book along and sitting in the corner entertaining myself. But as I got older, that became unacceptable and I was expected to socialize, or at least sit at the table listening in on the conversation. And I can't really talk to my sister because we're too different to understand each other. It's not that we don't get along, its just that we can't relate to each other. She can't conceive of why anyone would want to go to a college of 76 people and do 10 hours of homework a night when they could be out at a frat party and taking easy classes like introduction to piano for non-music majors. She doesnt understand why I wear my jeans and graphic T's or sweatshirts and shop and Aeropostale and Old Navy, instead her outfit for lounging around the house is a pair of black dress pants and a nice sweater, complete with the earrings, curled hair, makeup everything. It takes her a half hour to get ready for church, while it took me 5 minutes. So needless to say, we can't go to the mall with each other. She told me that we were going to spend "quality sister time" together because she doesnt konw anyone here either, but did that happen? No. Instead, quality sister time meant her taking my car out to go shopping by herself at every different mall or boutique within a 10 mile radius, while I was stuck at home with no transportation. So I spend the days sitting on my ass starting at the computer or TV screen trying to waste time. The one day I took the car out for a half hour to go to the library and get myself a book to read, her response was "well hurry back because I was going to go out" because heaven forbid SHE should have to sit at home like I have all week. And then she wanted me to give her money since she filled up the car with gas! She was the one who used it, not me.
So that, along with other stuff that I don't want to talk about, have all compiled into making this Christmas somewhat less than happy. I think I'm the only one who actually misses school. Cause when I'm at school, I don't have to deal with this stuff, and I have people to talk to and have fun with...and I'm generally a lot happier than I am when I'm at home...
Is it time to leave yet????
As for the "friends" part...well lets make that a singular "friend." My boyfriend, Chris, is the only friend I have here in New York. Don't get me wrong, I love spending time with him, and we've hung out a ton over break, but I need to have more than just one friend. I miss the days of going to Callie's, or Laura's, or Kina's house, and there would be 20 somethingp people there, and I knew everyone there and could have so much fun talking to everyone. Now, Chris will take me to meet kids he went to school with, and its just "oh you're chris's girlfriend, I've heard so much about you" and that's about the extent of the conversation. It's really hard to go places where you only know one person. I guess we can get technical and say that I've met his 3 best friends also, so I know them a bit, but not enough to call them up to hang out. And I don't have any girl friend here either, which I really miss. I'd like to have someone to go to the mall with, and spend a half hour in one store without being subjected to the painfully bored look that guys get when dragged to the mall. I want someone who will willingly go into Claire's with me and help me pick out earrings..or someone who I can watch girly movies with.
Hm let's see....the "family" part of Christmas. Well I don't know most of my relatives, since I never grew up with them, so they don't all remember how old I am, and I don't really have anything to talk about with them either. Once they find out that I'm a naval architecture major, its just "oh, that's nice" and you can see they're thinking "what the hell is that?" or "I don't care about boats" So going to the relatives' house for christmas isn't exactly my idea of fun... I wish i was still 6 years old and could get away with bringing a toy or a book along and sitting in the corner entertaining myself. But as I got older, that became unacceptable and I was expected to socialize, or at least sit at the table listening in on the conversation. And I can't really talk to my sister because we're too different to understand each other. It's not that we don't get along, its just that we can't relate to each other. She can't conceive of why anyone would want to go to a college of 76 people and do 10 hours of homework a night when they could be out at a frat party and taking easy classes like introduction to piano for non-music majors. She doesnt understand why I wear my jeans and graphic T's or sweatshirts and shop and Aeropostale and Old Navy, instead her outfit for lounging around the house is a pair of black dress pants and a nice sweater, complete with the earrings, curled hair, makeup everything. It takes her a half hour to get ready for church, while it took me 5 minutes. So needless to say, we can't go to the mall with each other. She told me that we were going to spend "quality sister time" together because she doesnt konw anyone here either, but did that happen? No. Instead, quality sister time meant her taking my car out to go shopping by herself at every different mall or boutique within a 10 mile radius, while I was stuck at home with no transportation. So I spend the days sitting on my ass starting at the computer or TV screen trying to waste time. The one day I took the car out for a half hour to go to the library and get myself a book to read, her response was "well hurry back because I was going to go out" because heaven forbid SHE should have to sit at home like I have all week. And then she wanted me to give her money since she filled up the car with gas! She was the one who used it, not me.
So that, along with other stuff that I don't want to talk about, have all compiled into making this Christmas somewhat less than happy. I think I'm the only one who actually misses school. Cause when I'm at school, I don't have to deal with this stuff, and I have people to talk to and have fun with...and I'm generally a lot happier than I am when I'm at home...
Is it time to leave yet????