The Thesis and Its Opponent
These thoughts in my head seem too crazy for me
I can conclude that they must be from You
Yet, the anti-thesis-What if it is Your enemy?
I cannot prove either is true.
That is why I am going insane.
These ridiculous thoughts of the future slowly rip my sanity away.
Japan? 「マジで？」* It seems too big for me.
This plan of turning people toward You on a rock in the sea
A whole new language, culture, life
Calling for a huge sacrifice
Yet the one You made was bigger Huh
Why are You going against me?
Everything I had everything planned out.
But You think I have Your complex
And proved I was so wrong.
Why can't I teach and write?
Such a blissful, peaceful future ahead!
But You set fire to my ink and tree
Before the future could even start to form.
You died I selfishly think for a moment
That You took the easy way out.
Try living for You and see how much harder it is
But you did You bled for That Way
And selflessly offered it to me
But-
Buts! All these "buts"! Are they Yours or mine?
At times, I can tell
But right now, I want to roll over and stop time
In order to keep the future from starting
You! It is all Your fault! You did not prepare me!
I have lived in the same house Wrote for the same teachers
Learned of You in the same place... Why send me so far away?
Why? I cannot take not having a single reason I am not I Am
Gladly let You make me into the me of tomorrow with Your single response.
_______________
* Japanese for "Are you serious?"
I can conclude that they must be from You
Yet, the anti-thesis-What if it is Your enemy?
I cannot prove either is true.
That is why I am going insane.
These ridiculous thoughts of the future slowly rip my sanity away.
Japan? 「マジで？」* It seems too big for me.
This plan of turning people toward You on a rock in the sea
A whole new language, culture, life
Calling for a huge sacrifice
Yet the one You made was bigger Huh
Why are You going against me?
Everything I had everything planned out.
But You think I have Your complex
And proved I was so wrong.
Why can't I teach and write?
Such a blissful, peaceful future ahead!
But You set fire to my ink and tree
Before the future could even start to form.
You died I selfishly think for a moment
That You took the easy way out.
Try living for You and see how much harder it is
But you did You bled for That Way
And selflessly offered it to me
But-
Buts! All these "buts"! Are they Yours or mine?
At times, I can tell
But right now, I want to roll over and stop time
In order to keep the future from starting
You! It is all Your fault! You did not prepare me!
I have lived in the same house Wrote for the same teachers
Learned of You in the same place... Why send me so far away?
Why? I cannot take not having a single reason I am not I Am
Gladly let You make me into the me of tomorrow with Your single response.
_______________
* Japanese for "Are you serious?"