Working late again today :-(...so decided to jot my thoughts down till i have to dial into my telecon. seeing
notanangel78 's holiday pics, it got me thinking about my vacation plans. In July I'd made plans to visit a friend in Dubai had got all the details about the tickets and had my whole online iterenary planned. I'd planned to leave in the end of November, and then Intel happened. All the vacation time i had collected at my previous job became null and void and my vacation plans too.
I've noticed this pattern in my life. everytime i plan something it never happens. I go to a store planning on buying a particular item but end up with things that were never on my list. I plan on writing something and end up writing something entirely off-tangent. Everytime i plan i end up being totally dissapointed.
All the great things that happen in my life are most 99% of the time unplanned. I'd never planned on becoming an Instructional Designer, it just happened and i love it. I never planned on going to the US it just happened! I spent 10 whole amazing personality altering months in San Francisco. Never planned on going to London just happened - one day i was on this project taking over from a collegue...the next i was on my way to London to train my client, just for a week but still an amazing week.
I never planned my move to Intel i was sort of happy at DT. Was chatting with
pmanoj007 about wanting a change in location, was thinking more in terms of a different city or even maybe country, but that plan never worked out. I know manoj you're going to tell me you still don't understand why i left DT. Well honestly i dont either.
Looking back at this pattern in my life, does it mean i shouldn't plan anything and just let it happen?? But thats a scary thought! My mom always said "God helps only those who help themselves." But everytime i've tried to help myself plan my life it has never materialized. But then should i let complacency set in?
Why? oh why? is life so mysterious? i sometimes wish i could get a peek into my future, then at least the present wouldn't be so scary!