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i think its funny that people are so hypocritical even when they say they arent.
i am a hypocrite. i know that. certain things i say but dont do. or vice versa. but im not gonna say im not one. i just hate the people who say they arent. but they totally are.
like my ex bf. who was straightedge and bitched about drinking and how awful it is. he never bitched at me for drinking, but he didnt like it. anyway... he has been drinking for two years now. its crazy how things change.
seriously. i feel like as these straightedge kids get older, they drop the act and only really had it in the first place cuz they wanted a group to fit into.
i apologize for ever calling myself straightedge. all i am is a person with views and values... and i dont value alcohol, smoking, drugs or casual sex. and i find people who do value those things not my type of people. i think those 4 things are the stupidest things on earth because of my past experiences with them. they dont make my life any better by having them a part of my life. so i do agree with the concept of straightedge and think that its a great idea if you ACTUALLY follow it... tho everyone interprets the concept differently and to fit their lives which is the beauty of thinking for yourself and not doing something to fit in.
holy fuck i cant stop sneezing! gah!
two things made me feel REALLY loved today:
+ my fav camper keeps sending me letters and postcards!! she is adorable! im loved!!
+ the lady i babysit for was like PLEASE DONT LEAVE... if you stay for the summer, ill make it worth your while! she says she really needs my help this summer. im needed!!
i already have my summer planned out. ive been thinking more and more about not leaving chicago. and staying here permanently. but im not sure. cuz i do want to move back to FL. i think ill still move back to FL for a year. then go where i want if a job comes up.
im moving back for many reasons...
A. my friends there.... i miss them. kris, kurt, danielle, cynthia....
B. the selogys.... i miss my drew and katie.
C. my mom... tho somedays we want to kill each other from even this far away.
D. stocking up on money and getting my act together
E. my animals... i miss them.
F. the fall, winter and spring weather
G. family... it would be nice to be more connected with Aimee, my little cousin, and Genell and Lee, my cousins
H. starting the roller derby league! woo!
thats all i can think of right now.
i am a hypocrite. i know that. certain things i say but dont do. or vice versa. but im not gonna say im not one. i just hate the people who say they arent. but they totally are.
like my ex bf. who was straightedge and bitched about drinking and how awful it is. he never bitched at me for drinking, but he didnt like it. anyway... he has been drinking for two years now. its crazy how things change.
seriously. i feel like as these straightedge kids get older, they drop the act and only really had it in the first place cuz they wanted a group to fit into.
i apologize for ever calling myself straightedge. all i am is a person with views and values... and i dont value alcohol, smoking, drugs or casual sex. and i find people who do value those things not my type of people. i think those 4 things are the stupidest things on earth because of my past experiences with them. they dont make my life any better by having them a part of my life. so i do agree with the concept of straightedge and think that its a great idea if you ACTUALLY follow it... tho everyone interprets the concept differently and to fit their lives which is the beauty of thinking for yourself and not doing something to fit in.
holy fuck i cant stop sneezing! gah!
two things made me feel REALLY loved today:
+ my fav camper keeps sending me letters and postcards!! she is adorable! im loved!!
+ the lady i babysit for was like PLEASE DONT LEAVE... if you stay for the summer, ill make it worth your while! she says she really needs my help this summer. im needed!!
i already have my summer planned out. ive been thinking more and more about not leaving chicago. and staying here permanently. but im not sure. cuz i do want to move back to FL. i think ill still move back to FL for a year. then go where i want if a job comes up.
im moving back for many reasons...
A. my friends there.... i miss them. kris, kurt, danielle, cynthia....
B. the selogys.... i miss my drew and katie.
C. my mom... tho somedays we want to kill each other from even this far away.
D. stocking up on money and getting my act together
E. my animals... i miss them.
F. the fall, winter and spring weather
G. family... it would be nice to be more connected with Aimee, my little cousin, and Genell and Lee, my cousins
H. starting the roller derby league! woo!
thats all i can think of right now.