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[reesey]

I feel bad for anyone who has to be or has chosen to be in a relationship with me at this juncture. I know I'm unpleasant and not fun, and don't feel like I can do anything about it. I feel like my depression is spiralling out of my control, and on some days I don't even feel like working, or reading, or going out with friends, or watching a movie, or having fun, or doing anything at all... I wonder sometimes why I'm alive, and when it will get better. The hopelessness and negativity is too much to bear sometimes and I just sleep for 12 hours straight. I'm still taking Wellbutrin.
I'm graduating in less than 4 months and I'm not excited at all; I just feel frightened and hopeless and lost.