Yuck!
So I slept about 2 hours again last night. Anyways, I hate the start of June. For the now past 3 years relationships have blown up in my face as it comes around.
My stress level was through the roof before last night, I don't really know how to measure it now. Let's see, my diabeties has been giving me trouble lately and that scares the hell outta me. My car can't even make it to work and back without screwing up, I don't know how I am going to make it to and around school. I just now got a job and I am broke until July. I might get a day job just to give me something to do. I have like $1500 in debt to pay off this summer. My sleeping pattern is screwed. The only time I sleep for more than 4 hours at a time is in the afternoon, leading me to not sleep that night. I have to get loans for like $20,000 for next year and I am scared stiff about going into that kinda debt. The reason I stayed at Marshall now doubts me and my love, which kinda makes me wanna wuss out and transfer to in-state. The loans thing really has me by the nuts. I don't even know where to start. Better off, I get NO FINANCIAL HELP FROM MARSHALL even though I have busted my ass and made a 3.2 so far. The pressure to keep good grades is really big that I put on myself, it use to come so much easier. Ryan is mad at me because of his girlfriend (long story) so he has been distant lately. I am really self-destructing.
-Reeser
My stress level was through the roof before last night, I don't really know how to measure it now. Let's see, my diabeties has been giving me trouble lately and that scares the hell outta me. My car can't even make it to work and back without screwing up, I don't know how I am going to make it to and around school. I just now got a job and I am broke until July. I might get a day job just to give me something to do. I have like $1500 in debt to pay off this summer. My sleeping pattern is screwed. The only time I sleep for more than 4 hours at a time is in the afternoon, leading me to not sleep that night. I have to get loans for like $20,000 for next year and I am scared stiff about going into that kinda debt. The reason I stayed at Marshall now doubts me and my love, which kinda makes me wanna wuss out and transfer to in-state. The loans thing really has me by the nuts. I don't even know where to start. Better off, I get NO FINANCIAL HELP FROM MARSHALL even though I have busted my ass and made a 3.2 so far. The pressure to keep good grades is really big that I put on myself, it use to come so much easier. Ryan is mad at me because of his girlfriend (long story) so he has been distant lately. I am really self-destructing.
-Reeser