What are we becoming.....?
I was having a discussion with Aaron last night on the phone and we were talking about religion on a whole, and our beliefs. I mean I feel that it is important in a relationship to have some of the same beliefs, and what not. Well that led us to a discussion about Jim Jones and the whole Jonestown incident. So I started looking up more and more things about stuff, and it led me to many different things... I will put all this stuff behind a cut so not to load down your FL with my thoughts, and also to those who are sensitive to subjects like these.
As I was looking around I found that so many things happened in April, hell the first one I can remember happening that rocked us was Waco Siege. For many that might seem like it was ages ago. However for someone like me that thought is still there in my mind. I was a Sophomore in high school, and I remember when it all started, I remember how my friends made jokes about W.A.C.O *We ain't coming out*, or after it was all said and done the jokes went around about W.A.C.O *What a cook out*. It was a dark time for us here in Tx. Here we had a mass cult in our backyard, and so many things transpired. A 51 day siege it was on the news non stop, and that seemed to be all that anyone talked about.I remember at one point when I was on spring break my father and I packed a lunch and we went out. He said he wanted to go and get wood, or something along those lines. However we wound up in Waco. My father told me that this would be history one day, and if I have the chance to see it I should take that chance. So we drove about 3 hrs up the highway and found ourselves near the compound of the Branch Davidian. Now mind you we couldn't get that close but we could see all the vehicles and people around. We also saw the news crews from all over. There were tons of spectators watching, waiting, curious.
We returned home and honestly I went back to my everyday life. I was a selfish high school kid. I had other things to worry about not some cult just right up the highway. I guess looking back on it now... I was naive, but that didn't change for some years. I will explain more in depth about that coming up. However when the 19th day of April rolled around *and I had to call my mom to make sure about this* I woke up and got ready for school. When I was leaving my mother told me she would pick me up that afternoon after school. So I left. I was in school and I remember the teachers turning on the tv's in our classes. We sat and watched what was going on. They all felt it was important for us to know this. It was a weird day that day to say the least. Well about 1pm my mother showed up and picked me up from school early. She said she just wanted her child home with her. So I sat at home watching the rest of the Waco siege take place.
To this day I still don't understand how someone could really have that much pull on people. I'm sorry but I think that David Koresh was a delusional man, who led a group of thoughtless followers along his road of destruction. Mind you I basically had to study this stuff while it was going on. We put it under a microscope at school and really looked into it. It was some crazy shit.
Okay so moving on. We now move onto the death of Selena now mind you she didn't die in April, but she was shot on March 31st, so close enough in my eyes, and plus if you want to get picky her birthday was April 16th? Seriously, her death really affected us as a whole here in South Texas. She had so much in her life to look forward to. However to be gunned down by someone you trusted.... It's sad. Her death came a month and a half before I graduated. I remember all the kids I went to school with, missing classes to go to her memorial they had in San Antonio, and many other things. My friend Joseph sat there in tears while I hugged him tight. He just kept mumbling over and over again ' Why Selena? She was going to change the world.' Now mind you I don't know if he was right, if she was going to change the world. However I know she sure did make an impact in the music industry, and to this day.... People still love her and cherish her... So he was wrong.. In all actuality Selena did change a part of the world.
Okay so next in my horrible trek down a fucked up memory lane .............
So now that we just had a craptastical time in March what with losing Selena, my sr class was determined to have a memorable year... WELL that came sure did happen. Oklahoma City The bombings that really screwed us up happened... Timothy McVeigh, a name that will never truly be forgotten. He and Terry Nichols were the ones responsible for the bombing that took place that day.
I remember how that really rocked the nation. All those people trapped under the ruble. The children that were in in the Day Care Center. I mean C'mon that is fucked up and twisted. Hell it's bad enough to kill people in the first place, but 19 children. I remember this picture, I think I will always remember this image, Firefighter and child, *sighs* Really now why?
Sick sick people in this world. It seems that McVeigh and co. were sympathizers of a militia movement, and they wanted to retaliate against the government for the way they handled Waco and Ruby Ridge. Okay... well someone should've told Mr. McVeigh that the constitution was not created to protect ones feelings. I just have no pity on people who commit such horrible acts upon others. It's wrong...
Ahh... now we come to Columbine High School.. *sighs* I will state right here and now, and you can bash me if you like.... Remember how a few paras up I said that I was naive and I really just kinda worried about myself...? Okay well April 20,1999 I was staying in a hotel to get away from Tim. We had had a bad fight and he beat the crap out of me >.< Which led to me moving home....but that aside I was so wrapped up in my own selfish world that I really didn't pay mind to what was going on in the country that I lived in. My sympathies and prayers went out to all those that lost so much that day.. but I didn't really pay attention to it like I should've I guess. I'm glad I grew up and out of that self destructive stage... However it didn't change anything about that day.
2 kids went into their school and gun downed their classmates and teachers. WTF!!! Seriously, and I want to have kids? People make fun of the 80's and what not, but really I don't remember school being THAT bad that kids did things like this. I spent the entire night reading all sorts of things about it all, and this one website I found just floored me. A Columbine Site, they have all the pictures of the victims there, and the progress of the survivors. Maybe because I wasn't in school anymore, or maybe because I was suffering from my own problems I never realized the sadness in this all til yrs later. Shame on me. However looking at it all now I sit back and think.. These 2 kids were just seriously messed up. I love how we glorify many wrong doings in the world now days... Be it excuses such as depression, music, bad homes, broken homes, parents fighting, to many other things... but this one brought up games. So many pointed fingers saying that DOOM was part of the reason they did it, because it only fed their anger. Well hell.. I'm GTA obsessed, does that mean I am going to get in my car and run down innocent ppl on the streets like I do in the game??? NO!!!! Because I think for myself, and I know how to separate games from reality. Maybe the game did have an effect on them, but more over I think they were just tired of the crap going on in their lives... Honestly Eric Harris just belonged locked up, and Dylan Klebold well... he needed a serious overhaul on his self esteem.
Yes that is harsh, but many claim that Eric was the forceful type and Dylan the follower who allowed Eric to manipulate him. HA. Dude grow a pair. Learn to say no. Maybe I am to headstrong to think in terms that Dylan possibly thought in, or those who follow cult leaders like Koresh, and Jones, but hell no would I let someone have that much influence or control over me. Why? Simple I have to live with myself, and my thoughts.
Anyways so Columbine opened up a whole new can of worms that later led to the Virgina Tech Massacres and many other school shootings. Yes I get it let's hate on the jocks and what not, but seriously...
These 2 kids wanted to outdo Waco and the Oklahoma City bombings... again WTF!?!?!?! Honestly if I have kids I will raise them like my parents raised me.... or maybe I will live in another country cause this place is just getting more and more scary.
It seems nowhere is safe anymore.. Does anyone remember Amish School Shootings? We live in some very fucked up times... I don't know, but I am starting to think it is selfish of me to want to bring a child into this place. D:
So I think I will stop here for now.... I have many more thoughts but I can express them later or in comments... I am not posting this to make anyone upset or of that nature... these are just my thoughts...
It seems that April is a dark month ne?
And just for an extra tid bit of info... most of these happened in around or on April 19th or 20th Hitler's birthday..... hmmmm
Just a random fact of trivia to mull over.
Who knows what lies ahead.... Take care and god speed to us all......
Take care my friends
I <3 you all.
~Reese
As I was looking around I found that so many things happened in April, hell the first one I can remember happening that rocked us was Waco Siege. For many that might seem like it was ages ago. However for someone like me that thought is still there in my mind. I was a Sophomore in high school, and I remember when it all started, I remember how my friends made jokes about W.A.C.O *We ain't coming out*, or after it was all said and done the jokes went around about W.A.C.O *What a cook out*. It was a dark time for us here in Tx. Here we had a mass cult in our backyard, and so many things transpired. A 51 day siege it was on the news non stop, and that seemed to be all that anyone talked about.I remember at one point when I was on spring break my father and I packed a lunch and we went out. He said he wanted to go and get wood, or something along those lines. However we wound up in Waco. My father told me that this would be history one day, and if I have the chance to see it I should take that chance. So we drove about 3 hrs up the highway and found ourselves near the compound of the Branch Davidian. Now mind you we couldn't get that close but we could see all the vehicles and people around. We also saw the news crews from all over. There were tons of spectators watching, waiting, curious.
We returned home and honestly I went back to my everyday life. I was a selfish high school kid. I had other things to worry about not some cult just right up the highway. I guess looking back on it now... I was naive, but that didn't change for some years. I will explain more in depth about that coming up. However when the 19th day of April rolled around *and I had to call my mom to make sure about this* I woke up and got ready for school. When I was leaving my mother told me she would pick me up that afternoon after school. So I left. I was in school and I remember the teachers turning on the tv's in our classes. We sat and watched what was going on. They all felt it was important for us to know this. It was a weird day that day to say the least. Well about 1pm my mother showed up and picked me up from school early. She said she just wanted her child home with her. So I sat at home watching the rest of the Waco siege take place.
To this day I still don't understand how someone could really have that much pull on people. I'm sorry but I think that David Koresh was a delusional man, who led a group of thoughtless followers along his road of destruction. Mind you I basically had to study this stuff while it was going on. We put it under a microscope at school and really looked into it. It was some crazy shit.
Okay so moving on. We now move onto the death of Selena now mind you she didn't die in April, but she was shot on March 31st, so close enough in my eyes, and plus if you want to get picky her birthday was April 16th? Seriously, her death really affected us as a whole here in South Texas. She had so much in her life to look forward to. However to be gunned down by someone you trusted.... It's sad. Her death came a month and a half before I graduated. I remember all the kids I went to school with, missing classes to go to her memorial they had in San Antonio, and many other things. My friend Joseph sat there in tears while I hugged him tight. He just kept mumbling over and over again ' Why Selena? She was going to change the world.' Now mind you I don't know if he was right, if she was going to change the world. However I know she sure did make an impact in the music industry, and to this day.... People still love her and cherish her... So he was wrong.. In all actuality Selena did change a part of the world.
Okay so next in my horrible trek down a fucked up memory lane .............
So now that we just had a craptastical time in March what with losing Selena, my sr class was determined to have a memorable year... WELL that came sure did happen. Oklahoma City The bombings that really screwed us up happened... Timothy McVeigh, a name that will never truly be forgotten. He and Terry Nichols were the ones responsible for the bombing that took place that day.
I remember how that really rocked the nation. All those people trapped under the ruble. The children that were in in the Day Care Center. I mean C'mon that is fucked up and twisted. Hell it's bad enough to kill people in the first place, but 19 children. I remember this picture, I think I will always remember this image, Firefighter and child, *sighs* Really now why?
Sick sick people in this world. It seems that McVeigh and co. were sympathizers of a militia movement, and they wanted to retaliate against the government for the way they handled Waco and Ruby Ridge. Okay... well someone should've told Mr. McVeigh that the constitution was not created to protect ones feelings. I just have no pity on people who commit such horrible acts upon others. It's wrong...
Ahh... now we come to Columbine High School.. *sighs* I will state right here and now, and you can bash me if you like.... Remember how a few paras up I said that I was naive and I really just kinda worried about myself...? Okay well April 20,1999 I was staying in a hotel to get away from Tim. We had had a bad fight and he beat the crap out of me >.< Which led to me moving home....but that aside I was so wrapped up in my own selfish world that I really didn't pay mind to what was going on in the country that I lived in. My sympathies and prayers went out to all those that lost so much that day.. but I didn't really pay attention to it like I should've I guess. I'm glad I grew up and out of that self destructive stage... However it didn't change anything about that day.
2 kids went into their school and gun downed their classmates and teachers. WTF!!! Seriously, and I want to have kids? People make fun of the 80's and what not, but really I don't remember school being THAT bad that kids did things like this. I spent the entire night reading all sorts of things about it all, and this one website I found just floored me. A Columbine Site, they have all the pictures of the victims there, and the progress of the survivors. Maybe because I wasn't in school anymore, or maybe because I was suffering from my own problems I never realized the sadness in this all til yrs later. Shame on me. However looking at it all now I sit back and think.. These 2 kids were just seriously messed up. I love how we glorify many wrong doings in the world now days... Be it excuses such as depression, music, bad homes, broken homes, parents fighting, to many other things... but this one brought up games. So many pointed fingers saying that DOOM was part of the reason they did it, because it only fed their anger. Well hell.. I'm GTA obsessed, does that mean I am going to get in my car and run down innocent ppl on the streets like I do in the game??? NO!!!! Because I think for myself, and I know how to separate games from reality. Maybe the game did have an effect on them, but more over I think they were just tired of the crap going on in their lives... Honestly Eric Harris just belonged locked up, and Dylan Klebold well... he needed a serious overhaul on his self esteem.
Yes that is harsh, but many claim that Eric was the forceful type and Dylan the follower who allowed Eric to manipulate him. HA. Dude grow a pair. Learn to say no. Maybe I am to headstrong to think in terms that Dylan possibly thought in, or those who follow cult leaders like Koresh, and Jones, but hell no would I let someone have that much influence or control over me. Why? Simple I have to live with myself, and my thoughts.
Anyways so Columbine opened up a whole new can of worms that later led to the Virgina Tech Massacres and many other school shootings. Yes I get it let's hate on the jocks and what not, but seriously...
These 2 kids wanted to outdo Waco and the Oklahoma City bombings... again WTF!?!?!?! Honestly if I have kids I will raise them like my parents raised me.... or maybe I will live in another country cause this place is just getting more and more scary.
It seems nowhere is safe anymore.. Does anyone remember Amish School Shootings? We live in some very fucked up times... I don't know, but I am starting to think it is selfish of me to want to bring a child into this place. D:
So I think I will stop here for now.... I have many more thoughts but I can express them later or in comments... I am not posting this to make anyone upset or of that nature... these are just my thoughts...
It seems that April is a dark month ne?
And just for an extra tid bit of info... most of these happened in around or on April 19th or 20th Hitler's birthday..... hmmmm
Just a random fact of trivia to mull over.
Who knows what lies ahead.... Take care and god speed to us all......
Take care my friends
I <3 you all.
~Reese