My little baby died tonight and it was all my fault
RIP
The most terrible thing happened tonight. My little baby died and it was all my fault.
I don't care if you think I'm being silly because he was only a hamster and I understand thay they have short lives and all, but this was completely avoidable and I've never felt so horrible about anything in my entire life.
I was sleeping on the couch, since my room was too warm, and I had my hammie with me and accidently fell asleep. I just woke up like 5 minutes ago horribly scared because I realized he was with me, and found him dead next to me. He probably suffocated or something...he was all hard.
He was so good though. He didn't run away like other stupid hammies and he didn't even bite me. Not even when something like that was happening.
I can't believe I was so careless. I feel like the worst person in the world and I'm completely disgusted with myself.
I even called Treff, even though it's almost 4 in the morning and he is up north. I hope I didn't worry him too much. He tried his best to make me feel better even though I woke him up and didn't at all sound annoyed with me. I just want him to come home so he can give me a huge hug because after having a shitty day, this is the worst possible thing that could have happened.
I don't even care how silly this sounds, because right now I feel like I've never been so upset about anything else in my entire life. It's not only because he died, it's because I fucking did it. It happened because of ME.