summer lovin'?
I used to count down the days until summer...Now I seem to count down the days till school. I am happy to be done with all the school work I guess, and the past couple of weeks were really stessful. But now summer's here, and I don't have a job (though I looked EVERYWHERE) and the stress of finding a job is worse than that of writing papers. And it has put me in a really really really depressed mood, because I can't help thinking that if I have this much trouble finding a summer position, how am I EVER going to find a career when I graduate? I'm in a major where nothing in guaranteed, but I kind of always told myself that great grades and hard work and hope and trust would just kind of lead me to what I wanted to do. But, after not hearing back from a dozen internships, I can't help but feel like I made a major mistake becoming an English major at a small liberal arts school. I love PC...but maybe a larger school with more majors would have been better. And these feelings make me even more depressed, because I really do love english and feel so happy when I write a good paper or have an interesting class discussion. But what will I do in two years when no one cares about intersubjectivity in "Mrs. Dalloway?" I dunno, I know I'm still young, still can figure stuff out...but this summer situation has really just bummed me out, and I wish I felt happy about this vacation like everybody else does...