Last Entry: December 31st, 2007
I almost forgot to update before the New Year! I think this shall be my last entry ever. I know I've said that before, but in the past the motivation was always fear or anger or distrust (of myself mostly) and now my motivation is love. What I mean is that I am going to love who I am and how I do things and how I think and what I like and I don't really feel a need to put it out there. I think it's no one else's business to judge me from reading something without knowing me. I spent so long trying to deny myself. I spent a long time trying to say “I am normal” when what I meant was “I am human”. I'm human, but I'm not a normal human. I don't really like to drink that much. I don't think I will drink very much anymore. I'm not a person of absolutes in action, only in theory, so I will not guarantee that I will never be drunk again, just that I'm not going to make such an effort to drink anymore. I'm not going to guarantee I'll never write in this again, but I'm not going to make an effort to. Plus, I have an awesome 2008 Moleskin that I got with Meagan in Denver, and that will probably do me just fine for journaling. I know very few people read this, but the publicity of it is unnecessary. I will try to keep in touch with Gigi via letters, I know she reads this because she likes me, not just because it's there. Otherwise, I think 2008 is going to be the start of something new. I've never made a big deal out of new years, but there's a first (and a last) for everything.