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Care to guess where i am right now? Out in my fucking car for the next 3 nights, scrounging off a pitiful internet connection OUTSIDE my house. Care to know why? My asshole parents kicked me out of the house for spitting on my asshole fucking brother. See after 10 minutes of him dicking me around about the fan in the room I snapped. I spit in his face. The amount of shit i have to put up with from that moron is ridiculous. I was not allowed to have R rated music when i was little, he gets whatever the fuck he wants with no questions asked. I plead for a $25 pair of shoes so water doesn't get in the the holes in my current pair, no, but they wont hesitate to shell out $100 for basketball shoes for him. My car breaks down 5 minutes from the house, they won't come and bring me at least some warm socks seeing as I stepped in half a foot of water to check the engine, yet they'll go out of their way to pick him up from school on a dry spring day.
I had words with my asshole father again. More screaming than talking however. See I'm not allowed to hit or even talk back to the little shit when he pisses me off, and he does constantly. The kid has severe ADHD and simply doesn't learn to cut the shit. I have anger management problems as it is, they know for a fact I can only take so much shit. I fucking hate this place and the people in it, my sister excluded. The worst part is, no one ever bothers to listen to my side of the story. My parents are fucking traitors and i hope they lose something dear to them. I complain countless times about this bullshit. They tell me to come to them if he's starting shit, i do it for a few weeks, they continually do nothing to stop it. Then, big suprise i flip out on them once, and everyone looks at me like the fucking enemy.
I feel like i have nothing to live for anymore. My life has become a whirlwind of disspointment and loneliness, and everytime i try to make a small improvement, shit hits the fan and im back in the gutter. My family is completely worthless, I've only got 2 friends who can be bothered to hang out with me, im a financial wreck, and school fails to interest me. My only real escape is in my gaming, and even that is withering(again, no one to play with) It's pathetic that my gaming buddies are more reliable than most of my "friends"
Long story short, I'm at the end of my rope. At this point i could care less what happens today, tommorow, next week, etc. I hate to sound like an emo bitch like i am right now but I've no choice. Life sucks, then you die.
I hope my brother dies, if he does, I'll go play pingpong while his funeral takes place.
I had words with my asshole father again. More screaming than talking however. See I'm not allowed to hit or even talk back to the little shit when he pisses me off, and he does constantly. The kid has severe ADHD and simply doesn't learn to cut the shit. I have anger management problems as it is, they know for a fact I can only take so much shit. I fucking hate this place and the people in it, my sister excluded. The worst part is, no one ever bothers to listen to my side of the story. My parents are fucking traitors and i hope they lose something dear to them. I complain countless times about this bullshit. They tell me to come to them if he's starting shit, i do it for a few weeks, they continually do nothing to stop it. Then, big suprise i flip out on them once, and everyone looks at me like the fucking enemy.
I feel like i have nothing to live for anymore. My life has become a whirlwind of disspointment and loneliness, and everytime i try to make a small improvement, shit hits the fan and im back in the gutter. My family is completely worthless, I've only got 2 friends who can be bothered to hang out with me, im a financial wreck, and school fails to interest me. My only real escape is in my gaming, and even that is withering(again, no one to play with) It's pathetic that my gaming buddies are more reliable than most of my "friends"
Long story short, I'm at the end of my rope. At this point i could care less what happens today, tommorow, next week, etc. I hate to sound like an emo bitch like i am right now but I've no choice. Life sucks, then you die.
I hope my brother dies, if he does, I'll go play pingpong while his funeral takes place.