Pain management

[reeface]

Distract me plz. Am downloading 512 today and have a big ole fat elephant of sad sitting on my chest. Because there's only one more -- ONE MORE -- ep of my gay show after this and yada yada angstcakes life over. What matters here is I'm sad like whoa. And if you were to say that my watching Justin and His Backpack of Doom (tm) walk away in this

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FLASHBACK TO 2000 WHEN I WAS SITTING AROUND, INCREDIBLY BORED AND LOOKING AT MY TV GUIDE. I saw the ad. I was interested by the idea of a british show coming to the United States although I wasn't clear on whether it was literally a british import or a remake. I planned to watch it starting from the premiere! I REALLY MEANT TO!

Except I forgot. Back then, during the dark ages, I did not have Showtime On Demand, so I couldn't just go watch what I missed, and I have this thing where if I'm going to watch a show it has to be from the beginning, so it fell out of my head. Sometimes I'd see references to it or run into the DVDs at Best Buy and think "woe, I wanted to watch that!" In fact! I kind of wanted to buy the dvds, but they were too expensive. LITTLE DID I KNOW HOW IRRELEVANT THAT EXPENSE WOULD BECOME!

FAST FORWARD TO 2003! I broke up with my boyfriend and spent about two weeks doing LOTS OF STUFF to keep from thinking! This is when I read the Harry Potter books and watched Oz and Dead Like Me and... NOT QAF. But I tried. At the time, Showtime On Demand had S2 up in order to let people catch up for S3 which was airing at the time. So I was like, "hey look it's Queer as Folk, I've always meant to watch that, I should totally do that." So I put it on, got distracted, looked over and saw Emmett jerking off and Brian giving Justin the "I want you to be around for a long time" speech, got confused and ran away because omg every time I looked over there were naked people AND WHERE WAS THE PLOTLINE?!?! So I didn't watch any more of it after that because I figured it was just all naked people all the time.

FAST FORWARD AGAIN TO 2004! Getting involved in fandom resulted in hundreds of people milling about on my flist (well, not hundreds at the time. Um. More than four! THAT WAS A LOT BACK THEN.) and sometimes people would talk about Queer as Folk! One friend had watched it till S3 but she hated S3 so much that she stopped towards the end sometime and never started again. She recommended QAF UK though, and I randomly ordered it from Amazon and watched it and thought it was lovely. THEN SHE TOLD ME ABOUT ALL THE WAYS THE US VERSION SUCKED IN COMPARISON and I thought "gee, I'm glad I never got around to really watching that, then!"

FAST FORWARD TO EARLIER THIS YEAR. In the end what happened was, people kept talking about it and it came on Showtime one night, reruns to prepare the audience for the upcoming S5, and I put it on because it was just there and so was I and I was bored.

Five years of dancing around this show came to a screeching, screaming end and left me going "...wait, did that guy just tell that kid that he's going to fuck whoever he wants but it's ok because then he'll come home? and did the kid just say SURE as long as you get home by 3? WEIRD." Yes, the first time I truly watched QAF, I came in just in time for the last few minutes of 206 and it made zero sense out of context. But for some reason I set up QAF as a season pass even though it confused me and made me think Brian was an asshole. Two weeks of three episodes per Saturday later, I was dying from "HOW CAN I WAIT TILL SATURDAY TO SEE WHAT HAPPENS?" So I started renting the dvds from Netflix, from the beginning this time. Then the Netflix couldn't get here soon enough either! For a while I'd be watch S1 on Netflix rentals and S2 on Showtime Saturday nights and sometimes I got the storylines confused but I didn't care because Showtimes Saturday nights were the only thing keeping me from going MAD between watching my Netflix rentals and waiting for the next shipment. I BECAME ADDICTED TO CRACK QAF.

Eventually I broke down and downloaded the episodes so I wouldn't have to wait. I *may*, I say I may have watched 216-414 in three days. Mostly by not sleeping. And I wrote a paper that weekend too!

Then I went insane and spent $400 of my student loan on dvds so I would never have to suffer Netflix's waiting time or bad quality downloaded episodes EVER AGAIN.

THAT IS HOW THIS HAPPENED IN FIVE MILLION WORDS THAT YOU WILL TOTALLY NOT READ.

And let me just say, that moment in 101? The first appearance of Brian? It still makes my heart clench up and I have to restrain myself from flailing and squeeing.