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i feel like a monster. not a big friendly one just a brutal one. today at rugby i rucked this guys head on purpose, this type of thing happens all the time but im never a dirty player im never! i dont know what came over me in a moment of rage i was vicious, dangerously viscious. i feel so dirty it really disturbed me, its not the person i am. (i seem to talk about rugby on live journal more than any other time, but this isnt really about rugby). anyway i apoligised to the kid and their coach after and mum was really proud of me for doing that which i can understand but in the end i commited a brutal act (not in the nature of the game) that i have never done before and i feel genuinly bad for it. o well at least i feel remorse.
I realised today that kelly is leaving. i had been avoiding thinking deeply about it but today as we sat in a leaning against carpet covered walls it confronted me. not that i really said anything about it as she sat next to me. i have been focusing more on sympathising with her best friends (ang gabs and charlotte) about her departure than actully feeling bad about the friend thats moving away from me. shes not going to far and im sure i will still see her but in the next week im going to have to say a proper goodbye.
band practise was fun. ang im glad u came it was good seeing u and watching calum and emile fight about things (dont worry it wasnt your fault) and they end up happy in the end.
I realised today that kelly is leaving. i had been avoiding thinking deeply about it but today as we sat in a leaning against carpet covered walls it confronted me. not that i really said anything about it as she sat next to me. i have been focusing more on sympathising with her best friends (ang gabs and charlotte) about her departure than actully feeling bad about the friend thats moving away from me. shes not going to far and im sure i will still see her but in the next week im going to have to say a proper goodbye.
band practise was fun. ang im glad u came it was good seeing u and watching calum and emile fight about things (dont worry it wasnt your fault) and they end up happy in the end.