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let me think this out a bit
Don’t Make Assumptions
Find the courage to ask questions and to express what you really want. Communicate with others as clearly as you can to avoid misunderstandings, sadness and drama. With just this one agreement, you can completely transform your life.
Im trying. I am. i think too much, especially about what im not sure about. instead of focusing on what i dont know-heres what i do. I know eventually, some day, i want unquestionable inconvenient mind blowing love. the way i say that sentence out loud is how i want to feel. not just love-theres a strong difference in what i want. i want to meet someone and just know right off the bat that theres something special about them. some days i may question if thats realistic or an unattainable fantasy but thats not the game, the game is what i want and thats it. i want to not be afraid of it and i think since mike i have been. im not concerned with when it happens i just want it to happen. i want inspiration. i want to affect people and i want to be affected. i crave to learn from other people. i want conversations where people want to learn everything you have to teach. i want honesty, even bluntness in people but compassion.
im good with other peoples feelings, i love when people open themselves up to me. i envy it in a one sense because i think it takes a lot of balls. im not like that and i think i should be more. i can tell a stranger about the history of jenna, i can tell u anything ive ever done, said, believed, anything thats happened good or bad in my life, but sometimes i have a problem with making myself vunerable. i go to about 75 percent emotional closeness and then i think i get nervous. my brain is one clever son of a bitch and it does things subconsciously that can be quite impressive. there comes a point where emotionally i can stop myself from going any further. not with u guys but with other people.
i think im really gonna give it a go. nothing forced, nothing superficial, just honest, try to have no walls. its the only way to live.
Don’t Make Assumptions
Find the courage to ask questions and to express what you really want. Communicate with others as clearly as you can to avoid misunderstandings, sadness and drama. With just this one agreement, you can completely transform your life.
Im trying. I am. i think too much, especially about what im not sure about. instead of focusing on what i dont know-heres what i do. I know eventually, some day, i want unquestionable inconvenient mind blowing love. the way i say that sentence out loud is how i want to feel. not just love-theres a strong difference in what i want. i want to meet someone and just know right off the bat that theres something special about them. some days i may question if thats realistic or an unattainable fantasy but thats not the game, the game is what i want and thats it. i want to not be afraid of it and i think since mike i have been. im not concerned with when it happens i just want it to happen. i want inspiration. i want to affect people and i want to be affected. i crave to learn from other people. i want conversations where people want to learn everything you have to teach. i want honesty, even bluntness in people but compassion.
im good with other peoples feelings, i love when people open themselves up to me. i envy it in a one sense because i think it takes a lot of balls. im not like that and i think i should be more. i can tell a stranger about the history of jenna, i can tell u anything ive ever done, said, believed, anything thats happened good or bad in my life, but sometimes i have a problem with making myself vunerable. i go to about 75 percent emotional closeness and then i think i get nervous. my brain is one clever son of a bitch and it does things subconsciously that can be quite impressive. there comes a point where emotionally i can stop myself from going any further. not with u guys but with other people.
i think im really gonna give it a go. nothing forced, nothing superficial, just honest, try to have no walls. its the only way to live.