"Pay no mind to those people who talk behind your back, it simply means you're two steps ahead."

[redxskies]

so i realized the only time i write in here anymore is when i need to complain. but i guess that's what it was made for, right? otherwise so many people wouldn't need to discuss how they feel online to like millions of people. anyways so i've been completely stressed out with school, and i have like zero time to do anything because of pledging my sorority and school and friends, etc. i've been doing my best to split the time equally but somehow i always get the short end of the stick. MY FRIENDS, the ones who claim "oh we're so close, we have a close group, we're best of friends" TALK ABOUT ME.... well FUCK FUCK FUCK FUCK FUCK THEM. i mean i am nothing but nice but oh i get shit for everything... i'm going to become obssessed with my sorority and never speak to them ever again, and i'm going to get a bad reputation if i hang out with a certain someone, and oh let's not forget this one "i'm losing respect for jenn, but i don't talk to her anyways" well you know what how can someone say all that when they specifically tell me that he didn't want anything to happen between us because we're really good friends. well FUCK YOU. you need to be put in your fuckin place, you talk shit about everyone and i'm tired of. but see i'm so passive, and i'm a bit of a pushover that no one thinks that i'm going to do anything. but just wait... if it gets bad enough, he won't know what fucking hit him. he thinks he's better than everyone else, well he's not on a fucking pedistole and he's gonna be put in his fucking place, and how dare he tell MY best friend that she shouldn't room with me... he has no fuckin right. ugh and the worst part is he's really not worth the time and effort to get upset over this, but it's bugging the shit out of me and i don't know... but then my other friends in "the group" say "oh we all do that" NO WE FUCKING DON'T BECAUSE I don't do that, and you know why? because when you befriend someone you DON'T talk shit about them behind their back, it's just an unspoken agreement, and even then it just shouldn't happen if you're supposively really close friends.

ugh shit like this makes me want to go back to Naples. fuck you all. jersey. you aren't REAL friends. i have my real friends, and they would NEVER EVER do shit like this.

AND my best friend can't even stick up for me, she and my other friend just agree with it.. well you know what, FUCK THAT SHIT. I'M DONE. I DON'T NEED IT, AND I'M NOT GOING TO DEAL WITH IT. i'll find real friends, who will stick up for me. FUCK YOU. the end.