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So last night kind of sucked, but only because I feel bad. Last night made me feel cheap. I don't want anyone to think I did anything bad, I didn't. I didn't even kiss a guy, but it was still the situation...what could have happened. I dunno, I haven't really done very much stuff like this, I've been a pretty good kid so this is all new to me. I'm not used to hangin out with this kind of people I felt so...inferior. I just wish we woulda stuck to a girls night in kinda thing haha...don't get me wrong I had a good time and I felt kinda cool but all I could think about was the guy I met in Tahoe the other weekend, John, he was just so awesome...Anyway I'm sorry to the friend that i kind of mistreated. I hope she won't hold a grudge. I dunno I'm done talkin bout that shit. You live and you learn thats all I can say, i learned i dont wanna be in a situation like that again and so ill try to avoid it...*meh*