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friday we went to this party and it was fun except there just had to be that one guy who thought everyone should know who he is, only i didnt. so when i asked him who he was, he made some asshole comment about myspace?!?! haha but it pissed me off
saturday i saw day after tomorrow. it was ok, but jake gyllenhaal on the big screen made it the best it could be. ahhhhh our ladywood (mine and ashley) was just tearing holes in our pants haha
this morning i went to my grandparents house and for the first time ever, my grandpa actually talked about what it was like for him in the war. hes never talked about it before, so i knew it would be hard to listen to, but i didnt expect to have my eyes tear up so much. i mean you see all the movies and you hear about it in school or whatever, but to actually hear soemone talk about it, who was in it, someone who lost so many friends during it, it really hits you hard, or at least for me it did. but then again my emotions could have all been mixed up with how ive been feeling lately
ive been doing a lot of thinking, maybe too much thinking. and at this party on friday, it really hit me. all those guys there, the ones i usually find attractive, arent attractive to me at all anymore. theyre only attractive on the outside but their personalities are all the same. they're like little clones of each other in everything they do,say,and how they look. and its not something i would ever want in a relationship. so then its like, well who is there?
and i know im only 19, but i think i need someone. soemone that can be there for me, listen to me and make me happy. not someone who just tries to fit in with everyone else, and thinks like everyone else. and im starting to think its hopeless
just little things like this have been getting to me and ive been crabby lately, and i dont know why. BUUTTTTTT i want to thank all my friends who have been listening to me complain A LOT over the last couple of days.
saturday i saw day after tomorrow. it was ok, but jake gyllenhaal on the big screen made it the best it could be. ahhhhh our ladywood (mine and ashley) was just tearing holes in our pants haha
this morning i went to my grandparents house and for the first time ever, my grandpa actually talked about what it was like for him in the war. hes never talked about it before, so i knew it would be hard to listen to, but i didnt expect to have my eyes tear up so much. i mean you see all the movies and you hear about it in school or whatever, but to actually hear soemone talk about it, who was in it, someone who lost so many friends during it, it really hits you hard, or at least for me it did. but then again my emotions could have all been mixed up with how ive been feeling lately
ive been doing a lot of thinking, maybe too much thinking. and at this party on friday, it really hit me. all those guys there, the ones i usually find attractive, arent attractive to me at all anymore. theyre only attractive on the outside but their personalities are all the same. they're like little clones of each other in everything they do,say,and how they look. and its not something i would ever want in a relationship. so then its like, well who is there?
and i know im only 19, but i think i need someone. soemone that can be there for me, listen to me and make me happy. not someone who just tries to fit in with everyone else, and thinks like everyone else. and im starting to think its hopeless
just little things like this have been getting to me and ive been crabby lately, and i dont know why. BUUTTTTTT i want to thank all my friends who have been listening to me complain A LOT over the last couple of days.