I...am...job.
Well...I got a job. I start in mid-July at a local CPA firm here in Humboldt, full-time and everything. I'm scared as heck, but excited too - this is basically the next step that I'd been procrastinating on since I first graduated back in 2003. I don't regret it for a minute - I've really enjoyed myself these past 5 years basically dicking around and working with Mike, just enough to keep a roof over our heads and food on the table. It's gotten old though, and I'm very, very ready to move on.
It's been bumming me out that my life is going to be changing soon, but upon further reflection I come to realize how much of this unease stems from the comfort of momentum. Life is easy enough...so why rock the boat? This mantra has been poisonous for me, allowing me to fall back on my laurels, giving me the freedom to not challenge myself and just coast along. However, it's the moments when I realize that a year, three years, five years have gone by and 'just enough' hasn't changed a bit. In that perspective, not changing becomes far scarier than changing.
All in all, I'm very much looking forward to not being broke all the time. I'm looking forward to taking real vacations (as opposed to couch surfing and begging parents for gas money) And I'm very much looking forward to not having to work frantically before a con, show up dead tired and end up working half the time fixing things I didn't finish in time. Yeah...that'll be sweet :)
It's been bumming me out that my life is going to be changing soon, but upon further reflection I come to realize how much of this unease stems from the comfort of momentum. Life is easy enough...so why rock the boat? This mantra has been poisonous for me, allowing me to fall back on my laurels, giving me the freedom to not challenge myself and just coast along. However, it's the moments when I realize that a year, three years, five years have gone by and 'just enough' hasn't changed a bit. In that perspective, not changing becomes far scarier than changing.
All in all, I'm very much looking forward to not being broke all the time. I'm looking forward to taking real vacations (as opposed to couch surfing and begging parents for gas money) And I'm very much looking forward to not having to work frantically before a con, show up dead tired and end up working half the time fixing things I didn't finish in time. Yeah...that'll be sweet :)