There's always some flaw
So I got a phone call from my best friend lastnight. She got engaged. Wow. I'm so happy for her. I like Matt, he's a good guy. I can only hope for the best for them. I can honestly say after she called me my night seemed a little less dim. When my family is happy - I smile too.
I talked to my other best friend the other night. She's coming home earlier than expected...And then leaving for Arizona and I guess Alaska too after the new year. No time. No time at all.
I'm glad they're doing what they want...I'm glad they're happy. But it seems like every time everyone else is moving forward in life and having all these great things and opportunities thrown at them I get put into a huge recession.
Maybe I'm just beyond stressed out right now. My stomach has been mad at me for like a week now. I have a headache that won't go away. My eyelids keep twitching. I keep looking for some light in the situation but I can't find one right now. Nothing is looking good for me at the moment. I just keep losing money and losing patience. I'm out of energy for feeling like this anymore. I think that once school is over things might be better. That's done nothing but piss me off. I like to be in school but I hated this semester. To avoid massive amounts of repetition let's just say it's not ANYTHING that I wanted for myself for the semester.
Why can't someone come around and be like "hey, I have some great news for you!" and actually deliver GREAT news to me?? Why am I always stuck here just staring blankly into oblivion? I'm really tired of constantly taking 1 step forward and then 10 leaps backward. I fucking need to get ahead for a change. But how do I do that?
Anyway - I hauled all the Christmas decor up all by myself yesterday and got the tree put up and the lights on it. So at least there's something pretty to look at when I'm bored. I love putting the lights on the tree coz I like to wrap them around myself and feel special for five seconds. Yeah, that's the only way I can make myself feel worth something these days...Being wrapped up in Christmas lights. There's just something intriguing about hundreds of tiny little vibrant lights everywhere. Yeah, I'm a fruitcake.
-Laura
"Awww...somebody likes snouts!" -Leela
"Is it me?!" -Fry
I talked to my other best friend the other night. She's coming home earlier than expected...And then leaving for Arizona and I guess Alaska too after the new year. No time. No time at all.
I'm glad they're doing what they want...I'm glad they're happy. But it seems like every time everyone else is moving forward in life and having all these great things and opportunities thrown at them I get put into a huge recession.
Maybe I'm just beyond stressed out right now. My stomach has been mad at me for like a week now. I have a headache that won't go away. My eyelids keep twitching. I keep looking for some light in the situation but I can't find one right now. Nothing is looking good for me at the moment. I just keep losing money and losing patience. I'm out of energy for feeling like this anymore. I think that once school is over things might be better. That's done nothing but piss me off. I like to be in school but I hated this semester. To avoid massive amounts of repetition let's just say it's not ANYTHING that I wanted for myself for the semester.
Why can't someone come around and be like "hey, I have some great news for you!" and actually deliver GREAT news to me?? Why am I always stuck here just staring blankly into oblivion? I'm really tired of constantly taking 1 step forward and then 10 leaps backward. I fucking need to get ahead for a change. But how do I do that?
Anyway - I hauled all the Christmas decor up all by myself yesterday and got the tree put up and the lights on it. So at least there's something pretty to look at when I'm bored. I love putting the lights on the tree coz I like to wrap them around myself and feel special for five seconds. Yeah, that's the only way I can make myself feel worth something these days...Being wrapped up in Christmas lights. There's just something intriguing about hundreds of tiny little vibrant lights everywhere. Yeah, I'm a fruitcake.
-Laura
"Awww...somebody likes snouts!" -Leela
"Is it me?!" -Fry