where am I?
Ok, so I've been in college for a few good months here. I thought that there would be some kind of epiphany. I don't even feel like I've changed very much. Sure, I've met some new friends. Sure, I go to a way big CO-ED school now. Do I have a boyfriend? NO. So my topic today is "where am I?" I think that somehow I'm missing out on the college existance. There are men, but are they as "ripe for the picking" as everyone makes college men out to be? NO. I'm running into a lot of those "girlfriend back home" issues. What's up with that? It was ok the first couple of times....but for pete's sake...ARE NOT LONG DISTANCE RELATIONSHIPS SUPPOSED TO BE CRAP? Apparently not here. I'm starting to think that I'm approaching something the wrong way. I mean....should I be on the prowl for some guy on the rebound? Should I be dressing like a slut and hanging on a guy's every word? Should I be a complete dominatrix? I thought I had a nice, happy medium going. I'm a decent girl. Granted, I'm the "friend" type...but isn't that a form of a "girlfriend" type? I don't know. I just don't know. And I'm kind of tired seeing the same girls get all the action. Jeez, it's not worth it. Why am I even wasting my time writing about it? The truth is: it's way been on my mind recently. I wish I could just go back to being happy and contented. ARGH