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why is that I have lost almost all confidence in myself lately. At camp I wasnt the same. I dont know if I could do the ranger job this next year my heart isnt in it like it used to be. I have not ever done good on this online class so I am not holding out too much hope that I am going to get out of this class with a passing grade. I frankly dont care about the subject that I once thought that this is what I wanted to do. I realize now business is what I might end up doing in life but not for a major. I love my history class, the lectures keep me up at 8 am and excited to be there. Why cant study for this midterm that is tomorrow. I have tried to today but I havent gotten done anywhere near what I feel I should. I know the stuff pretty well but is that really ever good enough. I have almost come to realize that school will be forever hard for me with me not enjoying but a rare momemment of it. I guess that is the way it will always will be.