thinking out my brother...
well he has been on my mind a lot lately. how long is he still going to be here? or is he actually gonna survive to get lung cancer? God I love him so much. I dont wanna let him go. Everytime he comes I wonder if this will be the last time I see him. One car accident wrecked his car real bad luckily he was hurts. Next he blows up a truck he shouldn't have been driving. If he doesn't get killed out kill himself he has a damn good chance of killing him self slowly by smoking. I know its his life and not mine, but I care what happens to him. I want him to be smart at one point I thought he was giving up smoking but he started back again. He acts like its nothing. Well he smells like shit which makes me not wanna be around him as much. adn in his car I get a headache from all the smoke. I can tolerate it a little but so much of it makes me sick. So basicaly what I am sayign is that I wish he was smart enough to stop, but I cant control that. I love him so much and I get so scared by the stuff he does to himself I just wish I new that he had a good long future form him.
Well to go along with this post I just wanna say I miss you guys down in atlanta so much. I need to get another trip planed. Also big pluss I almost have enough to pay back my dad and then I can save money for another plan trip down there. But I really miss all of you. Merrill it was great to see you for a couple days when my school ended and during the summer. So thanks for comign up.
Well to go along with this post I just wanna say I miss you guys down in atlanta so much. I need to get another trip planed. Also big pluss I almost have enough to pay back my dad and then I can save money for another plan trip down there. But I really miss all of you. Merrill it was great to see you for a couple days when my school ended and during the summer. So thanks for comign up.