Stress Release...
ARGHEWIEWOSWIQYNBEWA!!!!!!!
sorry... that was just a stress release mechanism. didn't really work... heh
So lately i've been feeling a lot of stress. It all seems to be weighing down on me and i'm really feeling it. I've got a lot of problems weighing on my mind and I'm not really sure if I can solve all of them. Normally i'm a really optimistic person. I never really remember a time when something's happened to me where I don't feel like I can do something about it. I always know things will turn out fine in the end, which they always have for me. Recently though things have taken a turn and i'm feeling the effects. Some of the things on my mind right now are where i'm at in my life, including my major. One reason this has been bothering me is that I think i'm failing my Data Structures class, and it's just really frustrating because I did so good in my last class. I know I can find a tutor or something to help me, so I think I might be able to pull through that one. Also i've been lazy and haven't gone to sign my major even though I got an email about 3-4 weeks ago saying I have to... I'm just super lazy and haven't gotten around to calling the office and seeing what I need to do and where I have to go to get it done. That's another thing that's stressing me out, the fact that I'm so lazy and I really don't do anything to change that fact. Sure I get things done eventually, but I procrastinate so much that it's annoying.
Another stress factor in my life is the upcoming payments that are due for the apartment i'm going to be living in next year. The payments start on June 1st, and go for 6 consecutive months with the last payment ending in November. Each payment is a total of about 500 dollars, and I have no idea where that money is going to come from. Money is such a burden, it practically controls your life. I've been going a little 'spend-happy' lately, and i've gone shopping a lot over break. It's fun, but it's not good for me. I really need to start managing my money better. I was supposed to go into the bakery when I got home from break to see if I could work a few days to make some money, but I never did that (another consequence of being lazy).
Yet another thing that's stressing me out is things dealing with my body. Mostly my weight. Since i've been up at school i've gained some weight, and it's really showing. I weighed myself a couple weeks ago for the first time in a long time, and it wasn't pretty. It's the most i've weighed ever in my life and i really don't like it. I've tried to start working out up at school, but it doesn't seem to stick with me, and when I do go I don't seem to push myself that hard. It's like i'm cheating myself and just pretending it's ok when really it's not. BLAH! I don't know... These are just a few things on my mind lately and I had to get them off my chest.
I'm trying to learn how to play the guitar, which is nice. Hopefully I can get good at it and that will help me with my stress. It'll be a nice release if i can just plug my guitar into an amp, crank it up, and just let loose. I'm looking forward to a day where I can do that. I've only been practicing for about 3-4 days, but I can really see myself progressing. It's a nice booster that I've been needing.
sorry... that was just a stress release mechanism. didn't really work... heh
So lately i've been feeling a lot of stress. It all seems to be weighing down on me and i'm really feeling it. I've got a lot of problems weighing on my mind and I'm not really sure if I can solve all of them. Normally i'm a really optimistic person. I never really remember a time when something's happened to me where I don't feel like I can do something about it. I always know things will turn out fine in the end, which they always have for me. Recently though things have taken a turn and i'm feeling the effects. Some of the things on my mind right now are where i'm at in my life, including my major. One reason this has been bothering me is that I think i'm failing my Data Structures class, and it's just really frustrating because I did so good in my last class. I know I can find a tutor or something to help me, so I think I might be able to pull through that one. Also i've been lazy and haven't gone to sign my major even though I got an email about 3-4 weeks ago saying I have to... I'm just super lazy and haven't gotten around to calling the office and seeing what I need to do and where I have to go to get it done. That's another thing that's stressing me out, the fact that I'm so lazy and I really don't do anything to change that fact. Sure I get things done eventually, but I procrastinate so much that it's annoying.
Another stress factor in my life is the upcoming payments that are due for the apartment i'm going to be living in next year. The payments start on June 1st, and go for 6 consecutive months with the last payment ending in November. Each payment is a total of about 500 dollars, and I have no idea where that money is going to come from. Money is such a burden, it practically controls your life. I've been going a little 'spend-happy' lately, and i've gone shopping a lot over break. It's fun, but it's not good for me. I really need to start managing my money better. I was supposed to go into the bakery when I got home from break to see if I could work a few days to make some money, but I never did that (another consequence of being lazy).
Yet another thing that's stressing me out is things dealing with my body. Mostly my weight. Since i've been up at school i've gained some weight, and it's really showing. I weighed myself a couple weeks ago for the first time in a long time, and it wasn't pretty. It's the most i've weighed ever in my life and i really don't like it. I've tried to start working out up at school, but it doesn't seem to stick with me, and when I do go I don't seem to push myself that hard. It's like i'm cheating myself and just pretending it's ok when really it's not. BLAH! I don't know... These are just a few things on my mind lately and I had to get them off my chest.
I'm trying to learn how to play the guitar, which is nice. Hopefully I can get good at it and that will help me with my stress. It'll be a nice release if i can just plug my guitar into an amp, crank it up, and just let loose. I'm looking forward to a day where I can do that. I've only been practicing for about 3-4 days, but I can really see myself progressing. It's a nice booster that I've been needing.