Ages
It's been just a little over 14 years since I posted here.
I remember the friend who urged me to make regular updates, though it's been years since we talked. I got involved in another relationship and had a lot of fun and made a lot of memories.
And now I find myself on the other side of the country, and had a few years on the other-other side of the country.
I still have my stupid emo moments, but have learned to deal with them better and have also learned the cause for a lot of them which makes me feel less broken most of the time.
I still have a lot of friendships I've made through the years, even a few from my ElfWood and #Loth days. It's still hard for me to accept people just like my company and don't want something else from me that I can't provide, but I'm becoming more comfortable with the idea day by day.
I've learned I'm demisexual and polyamorous, and possibly grey ace. I'm also non-binary, though it doesn't matter too much to me. I think when I started this I wasn't even out as gay yet, so I've definitely grown there, too.
I'm pretty sure I've made a post here about love being infinite, but I don't think I'd quite connected the fact it's possible to have more than one relationship at a time; I'd stopped writing here before really meeting Bobby, Joey, and James who really gave me insight into the possibility.
As usual I don't have a lot to say, really. I'm always crafting and learning how to make new things. There's always moments, big and small, that I'll remember later on.
I do find myself missing the past, sometimes. A midlife crisis, I suppose. I spent so much time worrying that I think I forgot to enjoy the moment and the connections I had. I know I'll continue to do so, though I fret a lot less these days.
The pandemic really helped me realize what I'll miss about this time and place, though, which has made me appreciate it more in the moment and I hope I continue to do so, no matter what the future holds.
Past me could never have imagined the life I have now and likewise I have no idea what the future will be. I hope I continue to grow and learn and appreciate and love through it all, though.
I remember the friend who urged me to make regular updates, though it's been years since we talked. I got involved in another relationship and had a lot of fun and made a lot of memories.
And now I find myself on the other side of the country, and had a few years on the other-other side of the country.
I still have my stupid emo moments, but have learned to deal with them better and have also learned the cause for a lot of them which makes me feel less broken most of the time.
I still have a lot of friendships I've made through the years, even a few from my ElfWood and #Loth days. It's still hard for me to accept people just like my company and don't want something else from me that I can't provide, but I'm becoming more comfortable with the idea day by day.
I've learned I'm demisexual and polyamorous, and possibly grey ace. I'm also non-binary, though it doesn't matter too much to me. I think when I started this I wasn't even out as gay yet, so I've definitely grown there, too.
I'm pretty sure I've made a post here about love being infinite, but I don't think I'd quite connected the fact it's possible to have more than one relationship at a time; I'd stopped writing here before really meeting Bobby, Joey, and James who really gave me insight into the possibility.
As usual I don't have a lot to say, really. I'm always crafting and learning how to make new things. There's always moments, big and small, that I'll remember later on.
I do find myself missing the past, sometimes. A midlife crisis, I suppose. I spent so much time worrying that I think I forgot to enjoy the moment and the connections I had. I know I'll continue to do so, though I fret a lot less these days.
The pandemic really helped me realize what I'll miss about this time and place, though, which has made me appreciate it more in the moment and I hope I continue to do so, no matter what the future holds.
Past me could never have imagined the life I have now and likewise I have no idea what the future will be. I hope I continue to grow and learn and appreciate and love through it all, though.