please bleed...so i know that you are real
watched the sunset set on flathead lake today. it was beautiful.
wish you could have been here, javier. :) there's something about being by the water that brings me such a sense of peace.
it's so weird to be around extended family that you haven't seen in 3 years. i felt so awkward at the lake today like, what the hell am i supposed to talk about. but after a couple hours, when the kids have gone to sleep and everyone has had a couple drinks, conversation is pretty okay. i miss my aunt sue. she called me jenni bunny today. i haven't heard her say that in a really long time.
i miss spokane already. actually, i should say, i miss home. i miss you guys. really bad. i didn't want to leave today. and i feel bad saying that because my g-rents were so happy to see me. and come to find out tonight, after a long conversation with my grandma, she has cancer. now...i feel like a bitch for getting upset with her about when i wanted to leave here. no wonder she wants me to stay longer. she's going to missoula tomorrow to get a final test done. i can sense her concern. she's so scared and i'm trying to be strong for her, but i'm just as scared as she is. i can't lose her. she means everything to me. please let this lump just be benign.
on a happier note, have you ever met someone for the first time, had a conversation with someone and suddenly feel like you've known them your whole life? that's what happened to me this week. there hasn't been an hour out of this day that i haven't thought about you and wanted to be with you. i miss you. and as much as i'm scared to have to let go in a week, i'm more happy to have found you.
wish you could have been here, javier. :) there's something about being by the water that brings me such a sense of peace.
it's so weird to be around extended family that you haven't seen in 3 years. i felt so awkward at the lake today like, what the hell am i supposed to talk about. but after a couple hours, when the kids have gone to sleep and everyone has had a couple drinks, conversation is pretty okay. i miss my aunt sue. she called me jenni bunny today. i haven't heard her say that in a really long time.
i miss spokane already. actually, i should say, i miss home. i miss you guys. really bad. i didn't want to leave today. and i feel bad saying that because my g-rents were so happy to see me. and come to find out tonight, after a long conversation with my grandma, she has cancer. now...i feel like a bitch for getting upset with her about when i wanted to leave here. no wonder she wants me to stay longer. she's going to missoula tomorrow to get a final test done. i can sense her concern. she's so scared and i'm trying to be strong for her, but i'm just as scared as she is. i can't lose her. she means everything to me. please let this lump just be benign.
on a happier note, have you ever met someone for the first time, had a conversation with someone and suddenly feel like you've known them your whole life? that's what happened to me this week. there hasn't been an hour out of this day that i haven't thought about you and wanted to be with you. i miss you. and as much as i'm scared to have to let go in a week, i'm more happy to have found you.