Mar 18, 2004 18:33
What up?
Today, I tried out for the Talent show. There were like 7 black people in the seats. I felt scared. So scared that I didn't mess up! Because, if I would've messed up, They were probably going to kill me. WHEW! I'm glad I didn't get killed by those crazy people. Actually, they clapped. And I felt good. After that, I went to Concert Chorale practice. Sang, and then hung out with Farrah at the library waiting for her dad. And food. I'm glad she got something to eat, because she would have killed somebody if she hadn't. haha. So, I was doing some thinking while smoking a cigarette...And I'm going to stop being so....girly, and feminine.(sp?)
I realize that people percieve me in other ways than I really am due to me being so "feminine". So, It's going to be hard, but I'm pretty sure that I can manage. I'm going to do this for myself. Just because i'm sick of people thinking that I "swing both ways" or just think that i'm plain gay. I'M NOT A HOMOSEXUAL! Now, I don't have anything against Homosexuals, but it's just not my way.
I've come to realize why people think that I am though. Here are the reasons:
- I wear women's pants. (Doesn't neccesarily mean that i'm gay, I just like how they look and feel.)
- I act a little "girly" sometimes. Well, alot. (My father doesn't really talk to me, and I was raised by my mom. My brother is never home. So, I've learned to cope to women's feelings. And, I've been hurt {as well as hurt} people in the past. So it kinda brought on my more sensitive side. I didn't want others to feel how I felt.
- This kinda falls under the "girly" category, but I move in non-manly ways. (weird. I just think that when guys move, they dont' look that attractive. anyway)
So, Yeah. Here goes nothing.
Some of you may not agree with this, some of you may...I don't really care. I'm just going to do this for myself, and nobody else.
Well, I'm off to uh...fart. and drink beers. and party like a fuckin' animal!!! Just kidding. heh.