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Once again, I find myself looking to fix the big things in my life. I have let the past year of my life become quite nearly useless. I have let down many people. Personally I consider myself failing as President and with my relationship. I would do anything to do either again, but I suppose that I had my chances. I have been diagnosed with depression, and my ability to handle things has only got worse. I'm in couseling, but that doesn't really help the hole that I've dug myself in. I suppose living with the folks and working at a little more lucrative of a job should help out a bit and is a step in the correct direction. I feel incredibly awful on how things with Jen turned out. Right now, I'm a sinking ship and I'm not about to bring her down with me. I would like to apologize to her, but she wants nothing to do with me, rightfully so. Its kinda depressing entering your 5th year and not really being sure when you are graduating. As weak as I may sound, I'm going to need help from you all. This is a difficult time, I'm having trouble getting through all this shit. I suppose I'm just venting now, not exactly looking for pity or fishing for compliments (though they are encouraging). Just trying to explain where I am coming from. Where do I go from here?