sigh
I can't believe after 4 years it's over. I know it's for the better, but it still hurts. Christina always had a place in my heart and I just don't feel like I can get rid of it. Whenever something happens in my day I always want to call her and tell her about it, but I can't anymore...but more importantly...
I am really depressed over the fact that I feel like she thinks our relationship was a waste. I feel so bad and sorry that I wasn't able to make her as happy as I could have. When I see that she says myles makes her so happy, it makes me happy as well that she found someone to make her feel that way, but at the same time it makes me sad that i couldn't make her that happy. I still care about her and I really want to be her friend. All I can remember now is all the good times we had together and all the pain that I caused her. She didn't deserve it at all and I hate myself more everyday for wasting her life.
And myles is very lucky for being able to date her. It hurts that she just found him just like that, but for what i did, i really can't complain. I hope that he can make her happier than i ever could...but i know that shouldnt be too hard. He seems to be a very nice kid and i wish them many happy times. I miss her. Tina im so sorry that i was really bad to you. I could just apologize forever. I honestly dont think i will be able to see her with another guy yet in person without getting really upset. but i brought it upon myself. I hope you have an amazing life, tina, please just be happy because that's all i want.
I am really depressed over the fact that I feel like she thinks our relationship was a waste. I feel so bad and sorry that I wasn't able to make her as happy as I could have. When I see that she says myles makes her so happy, it makes me happy as well that she found someone to make her feel that way, but at the same time it makes me sad that i couldn't make her that happy. I still care about her and I really want to be her friend. All I can remember now is all the good times we had together and all the pain that I caused her. She didn't deserve it at all and I hate myself more everyday for wasting her life.
And myles is very lucky for being able to date her. It hurts that she just found him just like that, but for what i did, i really can't complain. I hope that he can make her happier than i ever could...but i know that shouldnt be too hard. He seems to be a very nice kid and i wish them many happy times. I miss her. Tina im so sorry that i was really bad to you. I could just apologize forever. I honestly dont think i will be able to see her with another guy yet in person without getting really upset. but i brought it upon myself. I hope you have an amazing life, tina, please just be happy because that's all i want.