I've got a crush on you, I hope you feel the way that I do...
Okay, something crazy is happening.
Well, not crazy as in bad, i mean crazy as in good. Better than good, actually..
So let me tell you about it.
There's this kid that I like. Okay, I know exactly what you're thinking but it's not like usual, I swear.
So, anyway, I like him. And usually when I like a guy, no matter how much I like him, I always see myself avoiding him when we get close. No matter what, right when I start talking to him I just know that I'll start to avoid him when we start really liking eachother and hanging out and stuff. It has happened with every single guy I've talked to since John and I broke up. It has just been absolutely impossible for me to have any type of relationship with a guy other than fucking with their minds. I know it sounds really bad, but it's just the way I am with guys. I fuck with their minds, and I make them think I like them and then I completely run away from him. I've been absolutely petrified of commitment.
But this time, it's completely different. I don't know what it is about him, I just can't see myself running away. Like, it's just not an option. I don't know why I feel this way, but I know that I really do like him. I like him....like, I actually like a guy without the fear of commitment. It's crazy. I'm surprised to be honest. There have been a lot of hot guys out there but I just run away from them. This time, though, he's hott AND I'm not gonna run.
It actually makes me happy! :)
haha I'm crazy, I know. But I just hope things go well. Knowing my luck, it'll probably be the opposite. If I'm not the one not walking away, he probably will be. But I hope he doesnt, cuz I ACTUALLY like him.
yay :)
Spiegz42787: u r fuckin perfect im not even kiddin you
Spiegz42787: u r so like me in the way u think
yup, i'm not running awayyyyy!!!!!!!!! :):):):)
Well, not crazy as in bad, i mean crazy as in good. Better than good, actually..
So let me tell you about it.
There's this kid that I like. Okay, I know exactly what you're thinking but it's not like usual, I swear.
So, anyway, I like him. And usually when I like a guy, no matter how much I like him, I always see myself avoiding him when we get close. No matter what, right when I start talking to him I just know that I'll start to avoid him when we start really liking eachother and hanging out and stuff. It has happened with every single guy I've talked to since John and I broke up. It has just been absolutely impossible for me to have any type of relationship with a guy other than fucking with their minds. I know it sounds really bad, but it's just the way I am with guys. I fuck with their minds, and I make them think I like them and then I completely run away from him. I've been absolutely petrified of commitment.
But this time, it's completely different. I don't know what it is about him, I just can't see myself running away. Like, it's just not an option. I don't know why I feel this way, but I know that I really do like him. I like him....like, I actually like a guy without the fear of commitment. It's crazy. I'm surprised to be honest. There have been a lot of hot guys out there but I just run away from them. This time, though, he's hott AND I'm not gonna run.
It actually makes me happy! :)
haha I'm crazy, I know. But I just hope things go well. Knowing my luck, it'll probably be the opposite. If I'm not the one not walking away, he probably will be. But I hope he doesnt, cuz I ACTUALLY like him.
yay :)
Spiegz42787: u r fuckin perfect im not even kiddin you
Spiegz42787: u r so like me in the way u think
yup, i'm not running awayyyyy!!!!!!!!! :):):):)