Wow, I'm actually posting something, what a shock.
So, I've been thinking a lot lately. Yep. It's been one of those nights. Cheap beer, cheap cigar, listening to punk rock and watching the clouds as they race by in the sky above. Thinking. Thinking about a lot of things that I have been pushing to the back of my mind for a while, things that I don't want to think about. Feelings of disappointment rose up, mostly with myself. Mostly about how all of the plans I've had to fix things, for self improvement, have been thrust aside due to laziness, stupidity or just being too damned scared. I feel like I have some sort of resolve right now, like I've cleared my head appropriately and now I'm ready to tackle the fucking world and put things the way I want them to be, for once. Who knows if that will ever happen or if I'll just be talking out of my ass like I have done so many times before. When I look over this blog, or more so my livejournal blog, I have said a million times that I want to change things. I've even vowed that I'm actually going to do these things. Then I still find myself on my front stoop sipping out of an ivy can thinking about how I have failed and how I'm sick of it. I'm not sure what I need to do for that final kick in the ass to put me over the bump, but I really think that I'm ready for it right about now. I don't know. Shit is weird. I learned a lot tonight. I was finally very open with myself about some things that I've been feeling (yeah, I'm so fucking emo) and while I'm still 40% scared and 60% sure I'll fuck things up anyway I can't help but feel a little charge of excitement. Yeah, I'm staying vague for a reason, I'm a cock tease. If you want to know what I'm talking about just talk to me and I'll tell you. . . or I'll tell you to fuck right off since I'm such a personable fella. Let's just say that I was a little bit surprised by how frazzled I was because of something that I thought would be nothing. Enough about this for now.
Iron Man was awesome. I just saw it.
China was really cool and I swear I'll blog about it sometime.
The Sox are kicking some ass and I am pleased, I will blog about this later as well.
The derby was a throwdown war hell ride of awesomeness as usual, I'll post some pictures tomorrow most likely, maybe later than that, who knows.
Iron Man was awesome. I just saw it.
China was really cool and I swear I'll blog about it sometime.
The Sox are kicking some ass and I am pleased, I will blog about this later as well.
The derby was a throwdown war hell ride of awesomeness as usual, I'll post some pictures tomorrow most likely, maybe later than that, who knows.