someone kill me now
i have proved myself a weak weak person today. i hooked up with Jean-Luc agian. i guess it is a good thing i wasnt seriouse about the guy from RM Ben because had i been this would have so totaly proven me incapable of haveing a commited relationship. i mean i knew i wasnt over Jean-Luc and i admitted that but christ this is just sad on my part. If i was my owm friend i would have written myslef off by now thankfuly i have better friends than i deserve. i just thought the world would want to know of my fialure as a person.