First Night
This was my first night at the suicide prevention line. SACS.
It was what I thought and many things I did not think. C was relaxed, confident, and intimate when he spoke to people. Maybe 10 calls in four hours. Fairly intense. All but one repeats, all but two non-suicidal - as self-reported, but even these two were not very. Some intense problems. Lots of need to connect. It was intimidating. C said if it wasn’t he would worry about me. I would not will not, do it the same as C, but I don’t yet know what I am going to bring to it. In the interview I said ears, but one has to bring wit, humor, compassion, attention, the ability to know when to move on. Early in the evening J and R were there. J has been doing this for 20 years. R for seven, C for six. I did not expect this kind of commitment there.
I don’t know what I am going to learn, but learn I am.
r.slime
It was what I thought and many things I did not think. C was relaxed, confident, and intimate when he spoke to people. Maybe 10 calls in four hours. Fairly intense. All but one repeats, all but two non-suicidal - as self-reported, but even these two were not very. Some intense problems. Lots of need to connect. It was intimidating. C said if it wasn’t he would worry about me. I would not will not, do it the same as C, but I don’t yet know what I am going to bring to it. In the interview I said ears, but one has to bring wit, humor, compassion, attention, the ability to know when to move on. Early in the evening J and R were there. J has been doing this for 20 years. R for seven, C for six. I did not expect this kind of commitment there.
I don’t know what I am going to learn, but learn I am.
r.slime