Pathetic
Bad things have happened, and I have no one to blame but myself.
Last night I went for a solo drink/fuck binge. I hooked up with a guy in a bathroom, and to make a long story short I wound up missing my keys, my bank card, my credit card and some cash. Oddly, the rest of my wallet remained intact. I don't don't want to go into great detail about what's happened, but tonight this boy should be returning my keys to me (he took them accidentally), and soon I will have to be filing a police report in an effort to curtail what's already been $700+ loss on my bank card's debit account. (The bank teller I saw today assured me that after I file the report, the funds will be credited back to me).
I am such an asshole. I deserve this type of treatment because of the way I live me life. I am desperate and sad and confused and I don't really know what to do. I want to cry but I haven't been able to make myself cry in about 12 years. This is pathetic. I am pathetic.
What a goddamn waste.