other's delusional ramblings in crystalpale land
Sucks when peoples live journals become venues for un-related shit, so I am going to move my shit-slinging to my own journal and stop annoying her.
Man jon and becky are such tools! Megan was wrong,(She was wrong, but she is true and that is rare) I didn't sew becky's dress, I hemmed my own dress so It wouldn't drag and would look more professional. I couldn't afford to pay for it, but I had just scored, what I thought would be a good job (mother earth news) and had planned on giving her about $150 bucks as soon as I could afford it, to make up for her generosity in school, because she was very generous and kind at one time. I felt really bad for not being able to buy the dress, but that's all I could do cause I had made the choice not to ask my family for money anymore. She didn't pay for the dress, her mother paid for it with a credit card. But, unfortunately for her she dicked me over before I got a chance to give her any money, and I really haven't felt the need to since then. :)
With reguards to the vegan catering: Jon claims josey and i left and that they catered a meal for us. Josey wasn't even there, I had come to the rehearsal that I had been given just a few days notice about after working from 7am at M.E.N. in topeka until 5:30 including commute and feeling sick. The reason I wanted to go home instead of going to the rehearsal dinner is I had to make their present which was a candle becky specifically requested, and to heal because I was getting sick. Couldn't exactly say, uh, sorry i've procrastinated and haven't finshed your wedding present so I gotta go. I also was told that since I had just recently become vegan, that i really didn't give them enough notice for them to accomadate it. I whine, but I understood that, that is a realstic thing to happen. I was utterly shocked to find out that they had made arrangements for me, and I really don't believe it. I might have stayed, but i really didn't feel welcome.
And to wrap this up I will include some emails because those glimpses to the past are oh so fun.
From: Tracey Bell
>
>To: metallicmaiden@hotmail.com
>Subject: hi stranger...
>Date: Sun, 29 Sep 2002 18:23:54 -0700 (PDT)
>How's things going, I hear you are still working like crazy, don't wear yourself out too early in the semester. If you ever have a free moment and want to hang out you should call me. Your schedule is far more complex than mine, so I can work around it. Would be nice to see you sometime.
>tracie.
As for going to wedding showers, this was the only invitation i ever recieved and she never told me anymore about it. We were going to carpool and I didn't hear from her for about a week after that i think (interesting side note I was also on the west coast for at least one of the shower things, I am such a selfish bitch):
Metallic Maiden" Reply-To: redsaturn20@happyhippie.com
>To: "Metallic Maiden"
>Subject: Re: hi stranger...
>Date: Tue, 8 Oct 2002 22:45:31 -0700 (PDT
>
>I would like to come to the "girly" thing, if I could get a ride with you if it is in the "city", that would be swell. The job hunt has not been fruitful. I got a live journal, to keep everyone up on the crazy emotional crap that goes on in my life. I will send you the addy when i figure out what it is.
>tracie
And to end this wonderful bit of venting a quote from the queen of emotional support herself:
"Metallic Maiden"
To :
redsaturn20@hotmail.com
Subject :
please come out tonight...
Fri, 15 Mar 2002 19:14:30
just wanted to say that I am sory to hear what happened to you today. Nobody needs to be treated like that, especially by their mother. I do understand
becky
I would respond by saying, but its okay to fuck people over if they are your best friend. HA! Actually I only decided to write this crap to support megan in her argument that they are lying jerks, which I think there is plenty of evidence here for that. I am pretty scarred by the whole thing, I have trouble getting close to females because I think they are all going to screw me over and try to break my soul. But I am learning to not expose my heart so much, and still try to give enough to be a friend. It is a hard balance. I really pity them and the lives they live, but I know that I am happy and moving foward in my life and not letting evil people try to suck the life out of me anymore. They are still in kansas doing the same shit they did 2 years ago(even though becky planned on much more than that before meeting jon). But now everyone knows what jerks they are so, yeah. Blah. Bitch Bitch Moan Moan.
Man jon and becky are such tools! Megan was wrong,(She was wrong, but she is true and that is rare) I didn't sew becky's dress, I hemmed my own dress so It wouldn't drag and would look more professional. I couldn't afford to pay for it, but I had just scored, what I thought would be a good job (mother earth news) and had planned on giving her about $150 bucks as soon as I could afford it, to make up for her generosity in school, because she was very generous and kind at one time. I felt really bad for not being able to buy the dress, but that's all I could do cause I had made the choice not to ask my family for money anymore. She didn't pay for the dress, her mother paid for it with a credit card. But, unfortunately for her she dicked me over before I got a chance to give her any money, and I really haven't felt the need to since then. :)
With reguards to the vegan catering: Jon claims josey and i left and that they catered a meal for us. Josey wasn't even there, I had come to the rehearsal that I had been given just a few days notice about after working from 7am at M.E.N. in topeka until 5:30 including commute and feeling sick. The reason I wanted to go home instead of going to the rehearsal dinner is I had to make their present which was a candle becky specifically requested, and to heal because I was getting sick. Couldn't exactly say, uh, sorry i've procrastinated and haven't finshed your wedding present so I gotta go. I also was told that since I had just recently become vegan, that i really didn't give them enough notice for them to accomadate it. I whine, but I understood that, that is a realstic thing to happen. I was utterly shocked to find out that they had made arrangements for me, and I really don't believe it. I might have stayed, but i really didn't feel welcome.
And to wrap this up I will include some emails because those glimpses to the past are oh so fun.
From: Tracey Bell
>
>To: metallicmaiden@hotmail.com
>Subject: hi stranger...
>Date: Sun, 29 Sep 2002 18:23:54 -0700 (PDT)
>How's things going, I hear you are still working like crazy, don't wear yourself out too early in the semester. If you ever have a free moment and want to hang out you should call me. Your schedule is far more complex than mine, so I can work around it. Would be nice to see you sometime.
>tracie.
As for going to wedding showers, this was the only invitation i ever recieved and she never told me anymore about it. We were going to carpool and I didn't hear from her for about a week after that i think (interesting side note I was also on the west coast for at least one of the shower things, I am such a selfish bitch):
Metallic Maiden" Reply-To: redsaturn20@happyhippie.com
>To: "Metallic Maiden"
>Subject: Re: hi stranger...
>Date: Tue, 8 Oct 2002 22:45:31 -0700 (PDT
>
>I would like to come to the "girly" thing, if I could get a ride with you if it is in the "city", that would be swell. The job hunt has not been fruitful. I got a live journal, to keep everyone up on the crazy emotional crap that goes on in my life. I will send you the addy when i figure out what it is.
>tracie
And to end this wonderful bit of venting a quote from the queen of emotional support herself:
"Metallic Maiden"
To :
redsaturn20@hotmail.com
Subject :
please come out tonight...
Fri, 15 Mar 2002 19:14:30
just wanted to say that I am sory to hear what happened to you today. Nobody needs to be treated like that, especially by their mother. I do understand
becky
I would respond by saying, but its okay to fuck people over if they are your best friend. HA! Actually I only decided to write this crap to support megan in her argument that they are lying jerks, which I think there is plenty of evidence here for that. I am pretty scarred by the whole thing, I have trouble getting close to females because I think they are all going to screw me over and try to break my soul. But I am learning to not expose my heart so much, and still try to give enough to be a friend. It is a hard balance. I really pity them and the lives they live, but I know that I am happy and moving foward in my life and not letting evil people try to suck the life out of me anymore. They are still in kansas doing the same shit they did 2 years ago(even though becky planned on much more than that before meeting jon). But now everyone knows what jerks they are so, yeah. Blah. Bitch Bitch Moan Moan.