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Ugh
wtf lately i just feel so out of it. no one seems to want me around. Maybe that's cuz i'm in a bad mood, but then i get in a bad mood cuz no one wants me around. no one calls me to do anything and then I end up sitting in my room doing nothing.
I can't wait to go home. How did I ever think that things would work out here? How can I make good friends in this amount of time. I never had this problem back home. I never felt this insecure about myself, ever. No one called me a slut *except for one who shall remain nameless because we have a mutual hate - hate thing going on* I never had to do something alone that I didnt want to. Never had to eat lunch alone, or go wandering around the school trying to find someone to have lunch with. or dinner, or go to asembly, or go to class. or anything. Sometimes I hate being alone when theres a whole bunch of people around. You know what I mean?
MR must have been really bad for me to leave. Otherwise I just got bored, like I usually do. But I never sat at home on a friday or saturday night watching movies. I allways had somewhere to go, sometimes 2 or 3 places.
well anyways, now i'm just pissing myself off. I know I made this choice, i just dont want to have to live with it anymore.
Love (pppfffftttt)
Maryn
wtf lately i just feel so out of it. no one seems to want me around. Maybe that's cuz i'm in a bad mood, but then i get in a bad mood cuz no one wants me around. no one calls me to do anything and then I end up sitting in my room doing nothing.
I can't wait to go home. How did I ever think that things would work out here? How can I make good friends in this amount of time. I never had this problem back home. I never felt this insecure about myself, ever. No one called me a slut *except for one who shall remain nameless because we have a mutual hate - hate thing going on* I never had to do something alone that I didnt want to. Never had to eat lunch alone, or go wandering around the school trying to find someone to have lunch with. or dinner, or go to asembly, or go to class. or anything. Sometimes I hate being alone when theres a whole bunch of people around. You know what I mean?
MR must have been really bad for me to leave. Otherwise I just got bored, like I usually do. But I never sat at home on a friday or saturday night watching movies. I allways had somewhere to go, sometimes 2 or 3 places.
well anyways, now i'm just pissing myself off. I know I made this choice, i just dont want to have to live with it anymore.
Love (pppfffftttt)
Maryn