happiness is a myth
i knew that today was too good to be true. i really had a good day. and then i come home to my parents yelling at me. the offer for the hosue got denied so my parents are all stressed about that. richard now decides that he wants to stay working at Avborne. my mom HATES it there. it really is a simple desicion. either you want to work at Avborne or you dont. and form there you decide everything else. and they need to decide because i am currently without school. i definetly do not want to do the College Academy. and i really dont want to go to Western. if we stay here i might go to Mast Academy in miami. so i dont know if im moving now. i dont think im going to stay home this week. im going to call my grandma tomorrow and see if i can stay there.
on other things...mike still hasnt called me. nobody every calls me when they say they are going to. why does jarret get to be so happy? why cant i fucking be happy. how come everytime i am happy everything goes wrong. god why did my mom have to bring up jarret in the conversation. that was just to get back at me. its no fair. fuck it. i really need to get over it. forget jarret, mike, my parents, jsut everyone. from now on im doing things for me and me only. i dont give a shit if you get hurt when im trying ot be happy. sorry but i guess im a bitch.
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on other things...mike still hasnt called me. nobody every calls me when they say they are going to. why does jarret get to be so happy? why cant i fucking be happy. how come everytime i am happy everything goes wrong. god why did my mom have to bring up jarret in the conversation. that was just to get back at me. its no fair. fuck it. i really need to get over it. forget jarret, mike, my parents, jsut everyone. from now on im doing things for me and me only. i dont give a shit if you get hurt when im trying ot be happy. sorry but i guess im a bitch.
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