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wow, long time no write. life kinda sucks right now. i graduated from college and now i have to face the harsh reality of getting on with my life. i have to move out of my apartment and move back in with my mom in martin county. id stay in orlando but i just lost my job at disney and i have no where to live up here. i found a good paying job in martin county for the time being while i try to get a job in law enforcement, but it seems boring and ill be alone most of my work days. but im just really bummed out because i feel like im standing still. i mean, im moving back in with my mom for gods sake. i dont know who will murder who first. i need to find another place to live, quick! also it sucks to see all my friends around me going forward and here i am just sitting here. like, a bunch of friends around me are either getting married or have been in a long term relationship for a while, and here i am. nothing on the horizon. just sitting in my room all alone. i predict many such nights.i just dont think anything is going to happen for me anytime soon. i know there is something wrong with me, but damn! not even a chance! WTF?! every guy i meet is either gay, taken or just plain retarted. i cant even find someone even faintly available. god, life sucks. im going nuts and my body is all fucked up right now. i cant eat right, i cant sleep (its almost 2am and im not even tired) im 30 lbs overweight and i just have a 8 day period. wtf? thats just insane. im going nuts, im looney tunes right now. i seriously think ill be in some mental hospital soon unless something changes for the better.