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im not sure how i feel about my move quite yet. somedays i feel as if i relly belong here and to a sense i do-evrybody here is either a stoner or a skater and they all like rock music which i fall under very easily. but everybody here knos everyone and already has their friends it seems...and it makes me feel as if i dont belong n e where in that sense-stereotypicaly i do belong but on a friendship level not so much.i have a few friends whih i shuld be thanking for wasting their time on me since i was just a petiful freshman from walled lake who didnt kno anyone. my friend brooks is from new orleans and he was here for a couple weeks cuz his school was out. im really gonna miss that kid. he just went back this weekened and i felt like shit cuz i had a plan to give him a big hug and wish him good luck on friday but i completley forgot. its as if i felt he was just gonna stay there. i seriously feel like shit cuz i ddint follow through with my genious idea. is that how u spell genios? genious? i dunno. so i have senior friends kinda. im still really shy around them all quiet and all cuz im not completly adjusted to them yet lol. that was kinda funny. their really kool though. stevens sister, stephanie, shes really kool she suggested that me and steven go 2 homecoming 2gther which i really wanted 2 go with him even though i have a date with brent at novi high, i did wanna go but i cant! other shit is going on that day. darn. i had a rather nice talk with billy the other day. hes usually pretty not-talkative but he was this time we were walking alone to pauls and we actually ahd a pretty good conversation. hes kool. i wuld like 2 hang out with that kid. i feel like a retard though cuz im pretty shy 2 go up to any of their houses and i dont kno y. i mean im sure they wuldnt care but i kinda feel liek i dont fit in COMPLETLEY with them and i feel like thyed get annoyed of me cuz im not a stoner...i kno they wuldnt but im a weirdo like that and im sjut really shy wen it comes to newer ppl.sometimes i hate myself for that problem cuz i end up bored wen i culd chill with them and have loads and loads of fun. im drinking water right now. im pretty bored and i need 2 pee. tata.