i close my eyes and prepare to jump
i am such a mess for no apparent reason and its not too much fun... i'm going insane at night i can't sleep at all- not to mention i'm in my sisters room/bunkbeds since Julia is here and i don't feel at home at ALL... i'm not in my bed or in my room and my sister is making a mess of everything w/ her stuffed animals so i can't even go in my room w/o freaking out about the mess. and i am constantly bored and i have no one to hang out w/ since everyone is off w. thier summer plans and i'm stuck at home w/ my mom who's stressed out w/ her finals and its bitch bitch bitch bitch from everyone! even shopping for 2 fucking hrs didn't help yesterday! this sounds funny seeing as i'm on vacation but I need a REAL vacation! ahh! even my computer is bitching at me for trying to upload pictures on myspace! i had a dream last night when i finally feel asleep and it was the wierdest dream ever! lets just say there was a bear, skygliding over trees, being stuck in the middle of the woods, dancing frogs that talked and yelled at me, a few of my friends, dogs, killing a mean guy who was like 10x bigger than me, and getting kissed! ALL IN ONE DREAM!!!!!! yes so i am officially even more insane than i already was! and its not a good thing! i'm just so frusterated about a lot of things besides wht i already mentioned... but thts another problem thts not for you to hear.........