I love your for psychological reasons

Aug 20, 2019 13:19

The fandoms as relationships meme is going around and, since I've never played, I thought I might jump on that bandwagon.

The one who seduced you, screwed you over, broke your heart in a million pieces, and laughed about it.

If you'd asked me two years ago, I would have said Supernatural, but now I'm going to have to go with Star Wars. I fell hard and fast for Star wars after TFA. I went out and bought literally every film and cartoon within weeks of seeing it in the theaters, yes, even the 2003 Clone Wars. I bought a bunch of tie-in books and comics and read and wrote so much fic. Then three things happened in quick succession: 1) Rian Johnson and TLJ took a massive dump on the sequel trilogy and several legacy characters; 2) Dave Filoni and Rebels killed Kanan Jarrus; and 3) my dad died. My interest in the fandom fell off a cliff and remaining engaged was huge struggle I somehow felt compelled make. To this day, I still couldn't tell you how much of my broken heart is down to shitty authorial choices and how much is just tangled up in grief for my dad. Either way, I can't even muster up an ounce of anticipation for the last of the sequel films.

The old flame you don't see very often any more but whom you still really enjoy getting together with for a few drinks and maybe a pleasant nostalgic romp:

Avatar and I very much have this relationship. I occasionally drop in to say hi to Harry Potter as well, but it's not quite the same.

The mysterious dark one whom you used to sit up with talking until 3 AM at weird coffee houses and with whom you were quite smitten until you realized they really were fucking crazy:

Supernatural. I tried to watch some of the later seasons on Netflix and it's just a big old WTF!!!!!!!

The one you spent a whole weekend in bed with and who drank up all your liquor and whom you'd still really like to get with again, although you're relieved they don't actually live in town:

I don't really know. I don't think I have a fandom like that.

The steady:

Weirdly, I think it might be Batman comics, or at least fic about Batman comics. I've basically stopped actually reading anything by DC (again), but I do enjoy their fic versions and have been steadily writing my own since 2013.

I'd also say Agent Carter, more on the writing than the reading front. I've been writing at least one fic a year for that fandom since the show came out which feels pretty steady to me.

The alluring stranger whom you've flirted with at parties but have never gotten really serious with:

Pretty much every fandom lately. Seriously, ever since my break up with Star Wars I've been checking out the AO3 offerings for every show I at least half-way enjoyed. I think I tried Roswell, New Mexico the longest, but lost interest after a month and never wrote for any of it.

The one you hang out with and have vague fantasies about maybe having a thing with, but ultimately you're just good buddies:

The MCU. I've (mostly) enjoyed the films and fic, but I've never been bit by the writing bug for this fandom.

The one your friends keep introducing you to and who seems like a hell of a cool person except it's never really gone anywhere:

Good Omens. Everyone and their mother is gushing about it right now on tumblr and, while I certainly enjoyed the book and series, it didn't really click for me on an emotional level.

The one who's slept with all your friends, and you keep looking at them and thinking, "How the hell did they land all these cool people?"

RPF. I remember back in my Supernatural days that there were certain segments of fandom that were hard core into this and I just did not see the appeal of treating actual humans as characters.

The one who gave you the best damned summer of your life and against whom you measure all other potential partners:

Buffy the Vampire Slayer. HP was the first fandom I read for, but Buffy was the first I wrote for. I loved the open on sunday drabbles challenges. I loved Twisting the Hellmouth. I loved Liz Marcs and Newhepcat and a bunch of people I recall fondly from my LJ days. I haven't watched the show in ages and I'm sure both it and fandom and the fandom experience is no where near as good as I remember, but damn, did Buffy give me some good memories.

The one you recently met at a party and would like to get to know better:

She-Ra & the Princesses of Power maybe? I enjoyed the first two seasons, but season 3 was freaking amazing. I'm feeling really into meta-ing about it, but am strangely uninterested in fic.

Or maybe Umbrella Academy. I've been reading and writing more of this lately, but I really need more from it. Is season 2 out yet? Why can't we go back to the days when we had a steady stream of content to keep our interests alive?

The old flame that you wouldn't totally object to hooking up with again for a one night romp if only they'd clean up a bit:

Misfits. I liked it back when it aired and keep find myself reading it again and again and wondering what the fuck I'm thinking. Re-watching is even worse considering everything past episode 2.1 fills me with a weird sort of disappointment shading into anger.

Your hot new flame:

I don't have one at the present and it's been getting me down. Oh, cupid, when will you send me a new hyper-fixation to mend my broken heart?

The one who stole your significant other:

Probably Good Omens again. Everyone I followed for one thing over on tumblr has been posting nothing but this for months now.  Where's my regularly scheduled content, bitches? I care not for these angels and demons.

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