i would still die for you
yep. fun night. could have been funner. alot funner.
i'm sorry. you just wont admit youre mad lol.
i'm just....retarded. Liz said "dont do anything youre not comfortable with." its comes down to that. i mean. i get scared. and nervous. i mean. i dont want to do it wrong. or not good. or totally completely fuck up like last time. i want to make you happy. and i want to make sure that i will. i mean. I WILL. i swear to god. i just dont know when. it sounds really stupid i bet but idk. idk why i get scared or anything...and i probably dont seem like it...but i am. told you i was retarded. and i was really mad at myself. because i WANTED to. i really did. i just kinda freaked out inside at the last minute. idk. i'm sorry.
like i said.
i don't deserve what i have.
ive never known anyone like you man. the only person that knows me and has been with me for that long and can actually....deal with me. and still loves me. i guess you just kindof...understand. we can shoot eachother in the head and end up telling eachother i love you lol. i'm just....grateful. i mean anyone else would be pissed. or forceful. or really upset. or douchebag-ish. or just end everything. which has happened before. i mean yeah....i feel SO bad, but i was scared, and if i had while i was scared, it would be the whole "do it so he'll stay with you" thing. but i know that wouldnt happen. and im happy you accepted that it bothered me. you're a blessing. i mean. we can be horny little fucks. or we could be screaming at eachother over something we think is a big deal. but it never causes problems. you're psychotic and bipolar. i'm insane and ADD and probably bipolar. we can deal with eachother even though we could kill eachother lol.
and that kiss? i think that was the kiss. i really do. did you feel me shiver right then? well i did. that whole little period of time i was on the verge of tears....idk why(shut up lol). that was the moment i dont think ive ever felt more loved. idk.i'm retarded. no...not retarded.....just way way way too in love.
yesterday afternoon was fun too. amie's weird. we're psychotic we're so crazy its hilarious...i go home and tell my sister funny little stuff and shes like omg you guys are weird. and my shoulder hurts. and i have a BITEMARK bruise on my fucking CALF! weirdo! lol. but yeah. fun shit. humping is allowed in front of tay tay...not amie tho. lol.
oh. and you didnt call me. like you said you would. yeah.
"You can't pull me up from here so don't try i'm in a car underwater with time to kill thinking back i forgot to tell you this: i didnt care that you left and abandoned me what hurts more is that i would still die for you.Leave it up to me to burden you again this is not your fault so please forgive me...so just forget me. Don't think back don't think back on me at all I would still die for you."
i'm sorry. you just wont admit youre mad lol.
i'm just....retarded. Liz said "dont do anything youre not comfortable with." its comes down to that. i mean. i get scared. and nervous. i mean. i dont want to do it wrong. or not good. or totally completely fuck up like last time. i want to make you happy. and i want to make sure that i will. i mean. I WILL. i swear to god. i just dont know when. it sounds really stupid i bet but idk. idk why i get scared or anything...and i probably dont seem like it...but i am. told you i was retarded. and i was really mad at myself. because i WANTED to. i really did. i just kinda freaked out inside at the last minute. idk. i'm sorry.
like i said.
i don't deserve what i have.
ive never known anyone like you man. the only person that knows me and has been with me for that long and can actually....deal with me. and still loves me. i guess you just kindof...understand. we can shoot eachother in the head and end up telling eachother i love you lol. i'm just....grateful. i mean anyone else would be pissed. or forceful. or really upset. or douchebag-ish. or just end everything. which has happened before. i mean yeah....i feel SO bad, but i was scared, and if i had while i was scared, it would be the whole "do it so he'll stay with you" thing. but i know that wouldnt happen. and im happy you accepted that it bothered me. you're a blessing. i mean. we can be horny little fucks. or we could be screaming at eachother over something we think is a big deal. but it never causes problems. you're psychotic and bipolar. i'm insane and ADD and probably bipolar. we can deal with eachother even though we could kill eachother lol.
and that kiss? i think that was the kiss. i really do. did you feel me shiver right then? well i did. that whole little period of time i was on the verge of tears....idk why(shut up lol). that was the moment i dont think ive ever felt more loved. idk.i'm retarded. no...not retarded.....just way way way too in love.
yesterday afternoon was fun too. amie's weird. we're psychotic we're so crazy its hilarious...i go home and tell my sister funny little stuff and shes like omg you guys are weird. and my shoulder hurts. and i have a BITEMARK bruise on my fucking CALF! weirdo! lol. but yeah. fun shit. humping is allowed in front of tay tay...not amie tho. lol.
oh. and you didnt call me. like you said you would. yeah.
"You can't pull me up from here so don't try i'm in a car underwater with time to kill thinking back i forgot to tell you this: i didnt care that you left and abandoned me what hurts more is that i would still die for you.Leave it up to me to burden you again this is not your fault so please forgive me...so just forget me. Don't think back don't think back on me at all I would still die for you."