Just a little bit scared....
Well, I feel like my mood is changing at the moment and I don't know what to do about it.
I have decided I hate my job. I get up every day at 6am and it takes me an hour on the train and the bus to get to central London whilst fighting my way through hordes of people. (I gave up on the tube ages ago...just plain unpleasant) I then work in a job which hardly pays well (in London terms), with loads of stress and all my good mates here have left and got new jobs or are definitely looking. The attitude in this work place is at an all time low and no one wants to come to the pub with me at the lunch break to have a wine to dull the pain. I look forward to getting home at 5pm (if I am lucky) and the only thing good about the whole day is to snuggle with my boyfriend on the couch with a lovely (you guessed it) glass of wine...or maybe a bottle. Don't get me wrong, my homelife and social life is great, but that isn't everything....
I guess what I am working up to now is that I am seriously thinking of coming home. I don't think I am giving up, I just think i want different things from life now. I want to live in a house bigger than the small one bedroom flat we are renting and I want to have my family just on the other side of the city not the world.....
But I haven't lived in NZ for so long and moving is terrifying.......
I have decided I hate my job. I get up every day at 6am and it takes me an hour on the train and the bus to get to central London whilst fighting my way through hordes of people. (I gave up on the tube ages ago...just plain unpleasant) I then work in a job which hardly pays well (in London terms), with loads of stress and all my good mates here have left and got new jobs or are definitely looking. The attitude in this work place is at an all time low and no one wants to come to the pub with me at the lunch break to have a wine to dull the pain. I look forward to getting home at 5pm (if I am lucky) and the only thing good about the whole day is to snuggle with my boyfriend on the couch with a lovely (you guessed it) glass of wine...or maybe a bottle. Don't get me wrong, my homelife and social life is great, but that isn't everything....
I guess what I am working up to now is that I am seriously thinking of coming home. I don't think I am giving up, I just think i want different things from life now. I want to live in a house bigger than the small one bedroom flat we are renting and I want to have my family just on the other side of the city not the world.....
But I haven't lived in NZ for so long and moving is terrifying.......