Daydream Wonder
i am very dissatisfied with my drawing 'talents' as of late. thusly, i've taken down all my drawings on flikr.
i think i've pulled this before, or something just as whiney in the past, such is my way. i'm not sure what to do with my time anymore, and i seem to find myself dropping the pencil and picking up the bass. i spent many hours yesterday drawing, and it just turned out like everything else i've ever drawn. i just feel asthough i'm wasting all of my time and effort for naught. i can't seem to get out of the mould i've created for myself, and i'll mention nothing of 'breaking' it either in this entry. its infuriating, but its also okay because i realize, face facts, that i won't actually ever do any kind of art related job in my future. so no need to worry about how good i am, i suppose it *is* just a hobby. although i would like to do something art related . . . but i'm only a peasant, and not destined for greatness of any kind. but honestly, everyone reading this is destined to remain a peasant as i am, and you're all fine with it, why shouldn't i be?
hmm, now i might be insulting people.
i think i'll go read a book.
ps: i'm beginning to suspect something of myself that is actually pretty earth shattering for our little world of gossip anyway.. i won't reveal details yet, but i'll leave it at that. yep.
i think i've pulled this before, or something just as whiney in the past, such is my way. i'm not sure what to do with my time anymore, and i seem to find myself dropping the pencil and picking up the bass. i spent many hours yesterday drawing, and it just turned out like everything else i've ever drawn. i just feel asthough i'm wasting all of my time and effort for naught. i can't seem to get out of the mould i've created for myself, and i'll mention nothing of 'breaking' it either in this entry. its infuriating, but its also okay because i realize, face facts, that i won't actually ever do any kind of art related job in my future. so no need to worry about how good i am, i suppose it *is* just a hobby. although i would like to do something art related . . . but i'm only a peasant, and not destined for greatness of any kind. but honestly, everyone reading this is destined to remain a peasant as i am, and you're all fine with it, why shouldn't i be?
hmm, now i might be insulting people.
i think i'll go read a book.
ps: i'm beginning to suspect something of myself that is actually pretty earth shattering for our little world of gossip anyway.. i won't reveal details yet, but i'll leave it at that. yep.