Wow. Updates are needed.
So a lot has happened. After I had that strep throat, I got it again a week later, lol. Uh, no job yet, though I'm still applying places.
I think I'm going to go off of this Effexor when I get the chance, because ever since I've been on it, I just... I can't communicate with people the same way. It's also harder to feel things, which is a drawback; I don't feel depressed, but now I don't feel passion, either. Some of it is also just mental issues I need to work through and get out. But some of it's [boyfriend], too. He needs to learn when I say to drop something it means to drop it. Most of the time our arguments are over something really stupid and when I try to take a step back and say "Okay let's drop it this isn't a big deal", he fights me on it. I understand he's trying to make a point, but at the same time if he keeps pushing me, I blow up and bad things happen.
I've been working on being more tolerant with things that annoy me in our relationship; some things are stupid and not worth getting upset over. But every time we fight, we get closer and closer to breaking up. Our next fight may be our last, though I hate to say it.
Blarg. Sorry, I just wanted to rant somewhere where I didn't have to be grilled about everything and have [boyfriend] get upset with me. I just want a safe-haven.
Also, cheese.
I think I'm going to go off of this Effexor when I get the chance, because ever since I've been on it, I just... I can't communicate with people the same way. It's also harder to feel things, which is a drawback; I don't feel depressed, but now I don't feel passion, either. Some of it is also just mental issues I need to work through and get out. But some of it's [boyfriend], too. He needs to learn when I say to drop something it means to drop it. Most of the time our arguments are over something really stupid and when I try to take a step back and say "Okay let's drop it this isn't a big deal", he fights me on it. I understand he's trying to make a point, but at the same time if he keeps pushing me, I blow up and bad things happen.
I've been working on being more tolerant with things that annoy me in our relationship; some things are stupid and not worth getting upset over. But every time we fight, we get closer and closer to breaking up. Our next fight may be our last, though I hate to say it.
Blarg. Sorry, I just wanted to rant somewhere where I didn't have to be grilled about everything and have [boyfriend] get upset with me. I just want a safe-haven.
Also, cheese.