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this maybe my last post in a while. i had a fight with my mum again and i cant take it anymore. i'm sick of crying because of her. i have a job interview on wednesday and if i get it i'm moving that as soon as my first paycheck comes in. properly going to rent with someone. i'm sick of her fighting with me then trying to hug me and kiss me and forget everything she said, it doesn't work like that. last time i felt this low i went to slit my wrists. i cut my thumb getting the blade out and just watched the blood drip. i've never felt so numb, there was no pain no happiness, just completely numb. it was prefect. this time i don't have to think about death. because there is another way. i'm old enough to move out. i have some spare cash, i could get a train ticket, or a plane ticket. if i stay here, this circle i'm in will continue, i cant make everyone else happy and make myself happy at the same time. i'm sorry. thank you to everyone out there, must who have never met me yet still take the time to care and befriend me. your kindness has helped so much. goodbye and goodluck in your lives.