tallow (but youre so young)
theres a sister in my congregation
the more i think about it the more i
see shes just like my older sister its weird
the other day i was trying to fix something inside the dresser
i had had a horrible morning
the kind where everything goes wrong, you get in trouble for every
thing you 'try' to do right
super glue all over my fingers
industrial. the kind that will eat through fabric (yes i did that once)
gets angry but then dont get scared ok dont get scared OK??
i told him. i told him. im not scared dad (bewildered)
i knew the day would get better after that
and it did.
i have the ok. finally. ( i was right)
its all crumbling down
we rearranged the room
well ac]tually it went something like this
i got so sick of being in this wasteland of a room
really i could just not take it anymore
so i go and i buy, i dont know, these things that
are half way between cubbies half way to bookshelves
and i buy them. i buy two sets. i buy them.
and i get home and i build one
i build one and then the next day i build the other
somewhere i lost a screw but it didnt matter
maybe it never came i dont know
and so what ended up happening is the room has more room now and
it looks more livable. because its different
because i havent been able to leave the country for a good long time in a few years
but were supposed to go to rosarito. or encenada. i forget.
i forget how to spell it
]but no now im changing the subject
so everythings different now but not too different
and theres not nearly as much dust as there used to be
and so theres only one corner left. and the closet.
and i have my own outlet in the wall now, behind and to the side of me
and theres still her things lying around in some piles but
its not enough to make me explode. we are working on it
ive been listening to fight club
the book not the movie
i just get so tired
the more i think about it the more i
see shes just like my older sister its weird
the other day i was trying to fix something inside the dresser
i had had a horrible morning
the kind where everything goes wrong, you get in trouble for every
thing you 'try' to do right
super glue all over my fingers
industrial. the kind that will eat through fabric (yes i did that once)
gets angry but then dont get scared ok dont get scared OK??
i told him. i told him. im not scared dad (bewildered)
i knew the day would get better after that
and it did.
i have the ok. finally. ( i was right)
its all crumbling down
we rearranged the room
well ac]tually it went something like this
i got so sick of being in this wasteland of a room
really i could just not take it anymore
so i go and i buy, i dont know, these things that
are half way between cubbies half way to bookshelves
and i buy them. i buy two sets. i buy them.
and i get home and i build one
i build one and then the next day i build the other
somewhere i lost a screw but it didnt matter
maybe it never came i dont know
and so what ended up happening is the room has more room now and
it looks more livable. because its different
because i havent been able to leave the country for a good long time in a few years
but were supposed to go to rosarito. or encenada. i forget.
i forget how to spell it
]but no now im changing the subject
so everythings different now but not too different
and theres not nearly as much dust as there used to be
and so theres only one corner left. and the closet.
and i have my own outlet in the wall now, behind and to the side of me
and theres still her things lying around in some piles but
its not enough to make me explode. we are working on it
ive been listening to fight club
the book not the movie
i just get so tired