roommates
So this year I have 3 other roommates. Really it's not so bad in fact probably better than last year. I dunno if this even makes sense at all.
I went to highschool with this kid named Ryan, I never really considered him a friend(not that I hated him) because he hated me and whenver things went wrong somehow thought it was my fault that his girlfriend wanted to smoke pot or this or that. Well he is one of my roommates and I suppose I do need friends, but I feel weird and awkward. Ben and David both goto sleep fairly early (before 1am) but Ryan stays awake and we chat.
I suppose it bothers me the idea of him getting to know me. We had a few other run ins, this girl I found rather cool I started dating and then his sister has her over for a sleepover and he ends up making out with her and then bragging to everyone that he made out with her. Not to mention how he always gets crushes on girls I'm involved or have been invlolved in. He had a crush on my bigger relationship even while we went out and to this day. Then there is my friend Vanessa that I met when I worked at that shitty theater. He found out that her and I had a bit of a relationship and decides to flaunt this idea that she wanted to have sex with him, now even though I know the reasons behind that "offer" it still pisses me off that he brings this shit up still. The other day I was chatting to Ryann who I sortof finally had a real date with and he is like oh that is what her screenname is and runs off. Who the fuck does that shit? YOU HAVE A GIRLFRIEND.
Now I just feel like the shitty roommate that hates everyone and feels awkward, whatever I'm not gonna mention anything.
But to that Ryann thing, really she is the only girl in about(is it a year now?) that I have actually felt like a real more than a friendship relationship might be worth it. I stopped going after girls about a year ago unless I felt it may lead into a more serious relationship, friendships were fine though. So this summer I really fucking blew at hanging out with people. Towards the end of the summer Ryann and I discusses our suckiness and started calling each other more frequently.
Our first "semi-date" she called me and needed a ride because she said she was stranded so I offered to come get here, she called later and said not to worry about it. So I hung out with some friends and then she called and asked if I wanted to goto the city with her, of course I did so I ditched my friends saying I was tired. I still feel bad about ditching them but I dunno.. We went to this real bad neighborhood(apartment next to the creepy crawl actually) and she discovered she didn't have the kid's number that lived there so we wandered the block together and she started feeling nervous and stupid because she wanted to see the kid for his birthday(old elementry schoolmates). I put my arm around her and pat her back and we saw him randomly and hung out in a huge empty building. We drove back to her house and were going to sit in the park and chat but it was dark and stuff so she went home
Our next night was a bit more fun I called her saying we should hang out..god my memory is fuzzy..we did something neat and then went to this place called crazy bowls and wraps. It was rather good and I felt all butterfly like when we chatted. Afterwards we decided to find this weird thriftshop, I dunno reading and writing this it all sounds pretty stupid but I like her and in October I get to see her again.
It's late and I'm tired and almost dozed off so I am going to sleep...I wonder if anyone reads my journal anymore?
I went to highschool with this kid named Ryan, I never really considered him a friend(not that I hated him) because he hated me and whenver things went wrong somehow thought it was my fault that his girlfriend wanted to smoke pot or this or that. Well he is one of my roommates and I suppose I do need friends, but I feel weird and awkward. Ben and David both goto sleep fairly early (before 1am) but Ryan stays awake and we chat.
I suppose it bothers me the idea of him getting to know me. We had a few other run ins, this girl I found rather cool I started dating and then his sister has her over for a sleepover and he ends up making out with her and then bragging to everyone that he made out with her. Not to mention how he always gets crushes on girls I'm involved or have been invlolved in. He had a crush on my bigger relationship even while we went out and to this day. Then there is my friend Vanessa that I met when I worked at that shitty theater. He found out that her and I had a bit of a relationship and decides to flaunt this idea that she wanted to have sex with him, now even though I know the reasons behind that "offer" it still pisses me off that he brings this shit up still. The other day I was chatting to Ryann who I sortof finally had a real date with and he is like oh that is what her screenname is and runs off. Who the fuck does that shit? YOU HAVE A GIRLFRIEND.
Now I just feel like the shitty roommate that hates everyone and feels awkward, whatever I'm not gonna mention anything.
But to that Ryann thing, really she is the only girl in about(is it a year now?) that I have actually felt like a real more than a friendship relationship might be worth it. I stopped going after girls about a year ago unless I felt it may lead into a more serious relationship, friendships were fine though. So this summer I really fucking blew at hanging out with people. Towards the end of the summer Ryann and I discusses our suckiness and started calling each other more frequently.
Our first "semi-date" she called me and needed a ride because she said she was stranded so I offered to come get here, she called later and said not to worry about it. So I hung out with some friends and then she called and asked if I wanted to goto the city with her, of course I did so I ditched my friends saying I was tired. I still feel bad about ditching them but I dunno.. We went to this real bad neighborhood(apartment next to the creepy crawl actually) and she discovered she didn't have the kid's number that lived there so we wandered the block together and she started feeling nervous and stupid because she wanted to see the kid for his birthday(old elementry schoolmates). I put my arm around her and pat her back and we saw him randomly and hung out in a huge empty building. We drove back to her house and were going to sit in the park and chat but it was dark and stuff so she went home
Our next night was a bit more fun I called her saying we should hang out..god my memory is fuzzy..we did something neat and then went to this place called crazy bowls and wraps. It was rather good and I felt all butterfly like when we chatted. Afterwards we decided to find this weird thriftshop, I dunno reading and writing this it all sounds pretty stupid but I like her and in October I get to see her again.
It's late and I'm tired and almost dozed off so I am going to sleep...I wonder if anyone reads my journal anymore?