It's been a while...
As much as i long for and crave the Love of God. His Glory, mercy, faithfulness, his spirit... and i find such happiness deeper then anyone just simply "living" for this world could ever feel. But.. this might be wrong of me, or maybe just human nature... Sometimes i feel all alone. I feel like im the only person searching for more of God, more of his truth, more of his word, more of his spirit... I know i am not, but why do i feel this way? I cant *really* live without Christ and i sure dont want to!... but could we live without other human contact? hugs? an ear when needed? someone to experience things with here on earth? someone to pray with and share our Lord and savior with? maybe.. but i dont want to. And i dont believe God intended for us to be alone, he wants us to gather in his name! which means he wants those who believe in him to not forget one another, and to share their expreience and walk, and testimonies, and Gods word and everything with eachother. But i need help... i'm having trouble finding people who dont think im crazy. Lord why do i feel this rejection? No one could ever feel the rejection you felt.. but, its close when the world rejects you, but when believers start to reject you.... what am i left to think? I just.. am lonely for someone who understands me, and understands you, and i can share that understanding with here on earth. Whatever God has for me i will accept it, because thats his plan for me and my life. and if i accept God i must accept all he has for me even if i dont understand it. He knows better then I. so i guess this entry is pointless. And because i really dont have anyone to talk to right now... i just wanted to tell someone how lonely i am. And the point is..... I'm lonely.
Thank you Lord for always listening.
even when i ramble on about nonesense half the time.
You are still there, caring, loving, hearing my cries.
You know my heart, you know my desires.
I delight in you, I delight in your word... show me your love every minute, of every hour, of every day... i breathe and am reminded of your love. i would have no breath if it were not for your love for me.
I breathe because you love me.
Forgive me for complaining of being lonely when you are here trying to get me to see YOU have been there too, and you are here with me now.
Wrap me in your arms.
Thank you Lord for always listening.
even when i ramble on about nonesense half the time.
You are still there, caring, loving, hearing my cries.
You know my heart, you know my desires.
I delight in you, I delight in your word... show me your love every minute, of every hour, of every day... i breathe and am reminded of your love. i would have no breath if it were not for your love for me.
I breathe because you love me.
Forgive me for complaining of being lonely when you are here trying to get me to see YOU have been there too, and you are here with me now.
Wrap me in your arms.