me crying about something i should be celebrating
for once a week were i dont have to work every day. nice relaxation with a cup of green tea. it warm today, probably one of the last ones of the year.
it seems that i am not the only one in a pseudo-relationship right now. im not going to use any names, the rest of you know who you are(or maybe you dont. . .). its a double edged sword. be happy and enjoy it but dont get too comfortable. i have accepted it for what it is and i dont expect anything more. unfortunately shes leaveing in january no matter what happens. i just have to be careful not to cross any lines. lord knows id like to. ill have my day in the sun. thank god for my patience.
the real problem is there are other people in my life that id like to have a real relationship with and the pseudo-relationship is blocking that. it all comes down to me. i could play these women but thats not my style. id like one to end and another to begin. when it comes down to it, im just not a player.
at this point id like to step back and say hi to anyone who is getting sick to there stomach from reading this. its just another part of my ridiculous, self centered obsessions. to all you who want to kick me in the ass or just plain skip over this whole message and never bother reading another of my ramblings again, hi five! im with you.
anyhow, back to my bullshit sob story. boo hoo. poor me. too much love i cant seem to pick one. god what a douche bag i am.
it seems that i am not the only one in a pseudo-relationship right now. im not going to use any names, the rest of you know who you are(or maybe you dont. . .). its a double edged sword. be happy and enjoy it but dont get too comfortable. i have accepted it for what it is and i dont expect anything more. unfortunately shes leaveing in january no matter what happens. i just have to be careful not to cross any lines. lord knows id like to. ill have my day in the sun. thank god for my patience.
the real problem is there are other people in my life that id like to have a real relationship with and the pseudo-relationship is blocking that. it all comes down to me. i could play these women but thats not my style. id like one to end and another to begin. when it comes down to it, im just not a player.
at this point id like to step back and say hi to anyone who is getting sick to there stomach from reading this. its just another part of my ridiculous, self centered obsessions. to all you who want to kick me in the ass or just plain skip over this whole message and never bother reading another of my ramblings again, hi five! im with you.
anyhow, back to my bullshit sob story. boo hoo. poor me. too much love i cant seem to pick one. god what a douche bag i am.