guard sux, i can finally see the light.

[redoak8705]

Ya. school sux. I got written up because I WENT TO SLEEP IN THE GUARD ROOM AND DIDN'T WAKE UP FOR 6'TH PERIOD!!! opps my bad. So I got a truency and shit which means I have a U in conduct which means I am no longer a captian. Oh well. I am really not that devestated. It's fine. I have a whole lot less responsiblity when it comes to guard and school and shit which means I can apply myself more to school and work which is what I really need to. It also means that danni gets the leadership position that Rob is always reminding me that she "crys about not having" every fucking night. Man, fuck that shit. I am not enjoying guard n e more. I am leaving. If I am not a leader then great, we'll see how things go. If I still do not enjoy myself, then I am leaving and going to UH guard. Then dani can have me in the winter. YAY! I am just tired of all the guilt trips, the dirty looks, the rudeness. It is not fucking worth it. There are better things in life. really there are. I didn't think there were. I thought Guard was life and that was it. Flags, rifles and sabers ruled the universe and there was nothing n e one could say to disuade me. Well now I have found out for myself. Guard is not it. It's like saying the world is flat. Fuck that shit. I am fucking Megan Woolery and I am going to prove to myself that its not.

Congratz danni, it will be official soon. Hope you enjoy it more then I did. Maybe I just though it would be diffrent. I don't know what happended but I am just not enjoying myself n e more. Please don't let it do the same to you. Leadership ruins ppl. It really does. Please don't let it ruin you. You are a fucking awesome person and I hope it doesn't change you like it did me.